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✧・ﾟ:*Today’s magical girl of the afternoon is: Prisma Illya from Fate/kaleid liner Prisma☆Illya✧・ﾟ:*

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I wish I could draw. But I never really tried.  I wish I could write. But I never studied anything about it. I wish I could dance. But I never attend to any class.

I wish many things. But I am never feeling well enough to try anything. 

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It is hard to be alone.

It is hard to do things by yourself it it is mostly hard to find a reason to keep going on when you're by yourself. I guess most of us pass our lives basing our happiness on other people. We put all our hopes and expectations of happiness and personal realization on other people.

"I am happy because I have you by my side"

"You are the reason why I am still going on and fighting for things"

"You are my inspiration"

It is never yourself. It is definitely never your own straight. How to change that?

This just made easier to say: I have no idea what I am doing

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You hate yourself so loudly. You hate yourself at the top of your lungs. Your loathing for yourself permeates your speech. “Sorry I’m just rambling.” “Don’t worry about it.” “Just ignore me.” “Sorry if I’m annoying you.” “Sorry I don’t make sense.” “Sorry about that.” Sorry, sorry, sorry. You act as if you have to beat everyone else to the punch. As if the punching bag is you. If you hate yourself first, if you hate yourself loudest, then nobody will hurt you. You clapped your hands over your ears and shut your eyes and balled yourself up so that you’d never have to experience people’s loathing for you. And it meant you never heard their love. You drowned it out. You screamed your hatred over it. And you never got to hear it. 

There is a while since the last time I've been here.

Lately I can't really tell what day it is but I guess that's everybody who's actually following social distancing and quarantine.

So, I am deeply struggling with anxiety over my life. Thankfully, I have people by my side helping me out, people to tell me I am overthinking or just trying too hard to be perfect. I've been judging myself for not be working during this quarantine. I was working at least 3 times a week a studying everyday. Now I am just studying, what should be enough, if I wasn't so critical with myself. I want to be successful, I want to have a nice job, a nice degree, a nice house and everything for yesterday

That's anxiety, wanting to achieve everything now and at the first strike. I am extremely afraid of failing, I am afraid of engaging into something and not being able to finish or have positive results from it. However what I need to think is that every result is positive, even those that are nothing like we planned. Every mistake is a chance to grow, every bad day is a chance to be stronger, every anxiety breakdown is a chance to know how strong and focused you can be.