I really get this. I've actually said this before, obviously not word for word, but I have said this.
"Just because I don't care doesn't mean I can't be nice!" -Me
I don't have aspd (at least I've never been tested or been tested positive for it) but I really get this. I make good relationships and do good things not because I feel like it but because I know it's profitable for me in the future. I've been told that's a bad thing, but I do enjoy being around the people I've formed relationships with so I-don't-know-whatever.
I will never FEEL affective empathy.
I will never FEEL guilt or shame.
I will never FEEL compassion or sympathy.
Just like my mom, dad, mom's mom, aunts and uncles and cousins, and more.
So many in our family seem incapable, no matter how well raised.
Yet my ACTIONS are more GOOD then the average person that says they feel so much affective empathy, care, compassion, guilt
Think of it. People's guilt can trick them to thinking they are good just because they feel bad...even if they don't put in the effort to improve, keep doing the harm.
People's empathy can make them overwhelmed by suffering to the point they either do nothing or outright push for "quick fix" to stop seeing it, like removal of benches or spikes cause homeless.
People's compassion gives thoughts and prayers more so then helpful actions.
I on the other hand feel powerful helping someone when i knew without me likely no help or suffer worse (like by peoples bad advice)
I see the long term prisoners dilemma and know it's in my selfish hearted interest...to act helpfully, forgiving, but not a pushover. Transport, science, art, knowledge, stability, less death, garbage cleaning, economic stability. Long term for it all and how all connected means i ACT helpful and kind will always result in benefits i want. And I'm not slowed down by FEELING those things.
I may be the "psychopath" as I've been so called cause genetic aspd. But all that matters is ACTIONS.
Your EMOTIONS do not make you good or bad, they just are.
And appearing and viewed as good are much different then acting good acts.
Yeah we'll see.
This is fun, I like it. Relatable, I do say.
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shorthands for dumbassery that i have grown to love deeply
"how dare you say we piss on the poor" in response to someone misinterpreting your post
"_ isnt gonna fuck you" for suck up behavior
"woah. should we tell everyone? should we throw a party?" for who the fuck cares
"and what if the world was made of pudding" for when would this ever matter.
"and sharks are smooth both ways" for a group of people heatedly arguing with 1 guy who is fucking with them all
".. but its about a witch in the alps finding her lost cat" for someone trying to sanitize something to the point of absurdity
I just find the sentence "a question of sufficient luigi" hilarious
I liked this and I want other people to see it.
TOGACHAKO BC I CANâT FIND ANY FCKN FANFICS ON THEM OML
She was cute, but a villain. Ever since our fight all alone Iâve been thinking. Why am I so weird?
I always had a little crush on Deku and I always thought about him more than anyone, but at the moment the only thing that takes up my mind is the young girl that was threatening to kill me.
She was cute.
â-
âOchako?â She knew that voice. The green haired boy came up behind her.
âDeku.â she acknowledged, giving the boy a small distant smile. He seemed to notice as he came up beside her.
âWhat are you thinking about?â
âI justâŠâ she trailed off thinking about the blonde girl.
â...think Iâm weird?â she gave a small smile. Deku seemed to understand as he nodded in agreement.
âMe tooâ
She smiled thinking about why she wanted to help the young villain. After all sheâs killed and hurt people yet she canât help wanting to be by her side and can't help wondering about her.
Some days she would walk outside of UA hoping to maybe see the blonde girl again. She knew she wasnât supposed to but she could help the guilt creeping into her mind as she thought about her recent fight with Toga. She had made the girl feel like she didnât belong which constantly had Ochako falling into turmoil.
âYou deserve everything that comes at you!â
âŠ.
âYeahâ
The small smile will never leave Ochakoâs mind as the smile looked happy but her eyes held this deep sadness that made Ochakoâs heart run laps. She had said awful things and she was trying to be a hero? She didnât try to understand the girl nor did she even think about seeing her as human. She did take everything she had for granted and didnât realize that the broken girl infront of her on that day yearned for those things. So what are these overwhelming feelings of just wanting to make things right and yearning for the chance to fight the girl?
As she was walking she heard scuffling in an alleyway. She found this weird as villains tended to just roam free after the whole war going on and whatnot. So who was hiding?
Ochakoâs heart raced as she wondered if it was a civilian? Was it an ambush? Was it a child? Was it-
Blonde
âT-toga?â She let slip before she could cover her mouth.
She saw the girl hunched over eating a bird. Red eyes darted up and Ochako couldâve sworn she saw panic storming in those eyes.
Toga growled at her wasting no time launching at the girl she saw. Ochako fell to the ground with an âoofâ and quickly put her guard up. She could easily make Toga float up and out of her way but something in her just let the girl pin her down. As she looked at the starved girl her eyes widened.
âYouâre hungryâ she said more of a statement than a question.
âobviously â the girl sneered and that caught Ochako off guard. Usually the girl was smiling and swooning over her crushes and how she wanted to take their blood. So she caught the other off guard as well as she moved her head to the side exposing her neck.
She saw the girl falter and decided maybe words were best to explain but before she could she felt a sting where her shoulder and neck connected.
She let out a whimper as the girl drank her blood and felt the tears soak her shoulder. Her hand threatened to stroke the blonde hair and whisper words of encouragement but she just never got there. As the girl kept eating Ochako could feel her consciousness slipping. The world started turning black and white but she managed to croak out 4 words.
âYouâre.. not⊠aâŠâ
Toga paused and their eyes connected.
âMonsterâ
She let out her best smile before her mind went blank as well as her sight. However she didnât miss the way those red eyes widened and the tears sparkled decorating the orbs as her reflection shone in the painted red.
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Ochako woke up in front of UA.
âOCHAKO!â she heard a familiar voice yelling. She blinked her eyes open, breathing in harder than usual. She still felt lightheaded due to the loss of blood but the first thing she noticed were two cute little bandaids on her neck.
âDid Himiko do this?â she whispered to herself.
âWhat was that?â she heard Deku ask as he ran up to her.
Ochako just smiled, shaking her head to say it was nothing.
(I wrote this a while ago but Iâm thinking about refining and continuing itđââïž)
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