Me, Stressed: I Need A Drink

My heart problems are not because of Monster, it's nearly dead from having crippling anxiety since birth.

Me taking my first binder break and placing a stitch marker on my chest for a second and I see the return of my dread: this is a fucking disaster.

i am in love. this love is a home that is always empty.

One time, I was on Coronado Island during SDCC and saw you. It's probably been 12-15 years now. Since that day, sometimes when I feel out of place because maybe my style or vibe doesn't match the crowd I'm in, I think, "Stop! Be as comfortable and confident as Neil Gaiman walking around wearing all black in the California sunshine!"

This sounds very wise. I long ago learned I'm more comfortable feeling like me.

This is exactly what it looks like🫠

so I came across this on my fyp and I think that this person is a comedic genius-

I did go onto ChatGPT.

I did get results, based on the fictional crushes I've had since I was a teenager and what I recently developed (that I could remember from ten minutes ago, help me if I even remember what I'm hyperfixated on this week)

I'm going to give a list of my fictional crushes and you will analyse them, and tell me what my type is and what it says about me as a person.

- Bakugo Katsuki from My Hero Academia

- Sero Hanta from My Hero Academia

- Jirou Kyoka from My Hero Academia

- Leo Valdez from Heroes of Olympus

- Pietro Maximoff from Avengers Rise of Ultron

- James Potter from Harry Potter (but like Hogwarts age, and written by a fanfic writer)

- Ben Hargreaves from The Umbrella Academy

- Rosa Diaz from Brooklyn 99

Based on your list of fictional crushes, a few patterns emerge that can help define your type and what it might say about you as a person:

1. **Confident and Strong Personalities**: Characters like Bakugo, Jirou, and Rosa exhibit strong, assertive traits. This suggests you may be drawn to individuals who are self-assured and unafraid to express themselves. You likely appreciate people who are unapologetically themselves.

2. **Complex Characters**: Many of your crushes, like Ben Hargreaves and Pietro Maximoff, have intricate backstories and personal struggles. This indicates you might be attracted to depth and nuance, valuing characters who face challenges and evolve over time.

3. **Sense of Humor**: Sero and Leo both bring humor and light-heartedness to their stories. You may appreciate wit and a playful approach to life, indicating you value fun and joy in relationships.

4. **Loyalty and Friendship**: Characters like James Potter and Leo Valdez emphasize strong bonds and loyalty to friends. This suggests you may value loyalty and camaraderie in your own relationships, seeing it as an important quality in potential partners.

5. **Diverse Representation**: Your interest in characters from various backgrounds and stories indicates an openness to diversity and a willingness to explore different perspectives. You likely appreciate multifaceted characters that challenge stereotypes.

Overall, your type seems to reflect a blend of strength, complexity, humor, and loyalty. You might be someone who values authenticity and depth in both fictional characters and real-life relationships, seeking connections that are meaningful and engaging.

Like- damn- now that you mention it. This makes sense, I feel like this reasonates with me. I enjoyed this crystal ball exercise, it was surprisingly introspective and I will now never use this information to date someone. I almost forgot during this that I am scared of people lol.

Introduction post

Dear Reader,

Welcome to this blog, if you enjoy your time here, there is something fundamentally wrong with you. Let's be friends.

My name is Reid, I am 20 years old and I am genderfluid. I am a white, agnostic, pan-romantic on the ace spectrum INFJ-T. I will make sure that, if any, there will only be sfw interactions on this blog and I DNI with the following user types: homophobes, transphobes, racists, pedophiles, SWERFs, TERFs, Zionists, anti-Palestine supporters, anti-Ukraine supporters, Pro-Trump supporters, Pro-Putin supporters, minors.

The general posts that will come up on this blog will be whatever is in my head that I want to let out, most likely about my likes and hobbies, reposts of things I relate to and support, and that is all that it will be for now. I do write fiction, for myself, that I would like to post someday, but until then, I will just let the stories marinate in it's sad gayness.

I like reading, specifically fantasy and action, queer media especially. I actually started this blog because I read Solitaire by Alice Oseman. When I'm not reading, I'm crocheting and listening to music, my taste generally changes but I am a Swiftie at heart. My theme song is a tie between Dear Reader by Taylor Swift and Disenchanted by My Chemical Romance. This is most likely the type of riveting posts you might see in the future if you would like to be mutuals :)

I have stated it before, but I want to make a clear note here that this blog is meant to be for myself, and have a place to be when I don't want to be "me-offline". This is going to be somewhat of my safespace, it just happens that I thought it would be a fun little life choice to increase my carbon footprint and put my thoughts on the internet. The thoughts that will not be responding to any hate, and that support the ceasefire and freedom of Palestine.

Thank you for reading this post, and getting to know me a little, it would be nice to know other like-minded people on here, so you're welcome to DM me any time. Enjoy the rest of your time on Earth, goodbye.

From, Reid ✷

Edit: Lately I've written a lot about my home life, but I want to write about the happy things more than the bad things now.

a world not a home

Existing. You do that, you breathe, you see, touch, you taste, you smell. Survival. You do that, you eat, you sleep, you move, you drink. Feel. You do that, you laugh, you cry, you destroy.

Peace. We need that. Love. We need that. Hope. We can lose that flame as quick as it lights.

The basics are simple in this world. But this world is not simple. This world never gives you all you need, or all you can do, but only humanity is what can make this world a home.

Disaster. It kills us. Rejection. It kills us. Guns. We kill each other.

None of us are truly home. This is inhumane. Stop the violence. Ceasefire.

I am sorry to everyone who tagged me in some tag game and I never responded. I saw it and thought “aww they thought of me” and proceeded to forget about it right after

I remember you. You're someone I have to forget.

(I've missed you. I've loved you.)