Slowly I Married Her, Leonard Cohen

I have ADHD and I currently have some yet-to-be-diagnosed probably neurological thing going on which is really slowing me down so my house work has been getting away from me and crap piles have been growing. I want to share 3 methods that have been helping me get on top of it today - I've actually almost got my kitchen clean and my floordrobe put away.

Do 10 things. This is a trick my mother would use on me when I was a kid. I don't have to clean my room, I just have to pick up/tidy/clean/put away 10 things. 10 things is nothing, 10 things is easy peasy. Every time I need to get up to go to the bathroom or get a drink or a snack I'm doing 10 things - it builds up. It also leads naturally into:

I might as well. I often end up doing more than 10 things because if I'm putting this thing away in the bathroom I might as well empty the bathroom trash can while I'm there. And if I'm emptying that trash can I might as well take the empty shampoo bottle, that's been sitting on the ledge in the shower for days since I finished it, to the recycling while I'm at it. If I get up to get a drink and do 10 things in the kitchen before I grab it, I might as well refill the Brita jug and while I'm filling stuff with water I might as well fill up my watering can too. Which leads naturally into:

I don't have to do it right now but I'll get ready for it. Just because I've filled my watering can doesn't mean I need to water my plants right now. I've done my 10 things (or more because I might as well) I need a rest. I can go and sit back down and next time I need to get up and I'm going to do 10 things then watering plants is likely to be on that list because the watering can is already full. Say as part of my 10 things I've gathered up a bunch of reusable shopping bags and a bunch of things that need to go to other places in the house - I don't need to put all that stuff away right now, I can sort it into places it needs to go, designate a bag for each place, put the bags down next to me so next time I get up and do 10 things I can easily take them with me and put them away.

If you asked me what I've been doing today I'd say I've been doing nothing on the internet and resting as my doctor told me to. But somehow my house is getting clean and tidy at the same time.

day 487/547 until joon returns

Joel died with guilt. Not for what he did to save Ellie. He died with guilt because he thought Ellie and Dina were next. He died with guilt because he didn’t know Tommy made it out of the disaster in Jackson alive and well. Joel died thinking he failed again like he did with Sarah.

God importance of food in HUNGER Games is such amazing aspect of the books and shows the mentality of both Katniss AND Snow.

Coriolanus learns that food is power. He sees Nero Prize cutting off maid's leg to eat it. He sees what tributes will do for food. He knows what Lucy Gray did for food. He knows what he would do for food.

In his eyes food is a luxury and ultimate means of manipulation. That's why there is a tessare system, that's why there are monthly packages for the winning districts, that's why Games are a yearly public spectacle in the Capitol. He keeps districts hungry for food and Capitol hungry for entertainment.

Katniss learns that food is love. It starts with Peeta throwing her the burned loaf of bread. Then goes further into her love for Prim, which is the main cause of her hunting. Then with Gale as her hunting partner. Then with Madge who is her best friend and loves strawberries. Then with Mr. Mellark who loves squirrels. Then with Rue and bread from District 11. Then with Peeta again, with the berries.

Katniss doesn't use the power of food over people. She shares it. That's how she builds connections, forms friendships, wins over people's hearts, starts and wins revolutions.

For Snow food it a tool with which you can sew starvation and chaos.

For Katniss food is a tool with which you can form bonds and find peace.

Chandrillan marraige hike (manufactured nostalgia) vs aldani hike to the eye (living culture)

BOY IN LUV — BTS, 2014

I’ve been the shadow of your shadow

Richard Siken, Peter Wever, Ilya Kaminsky, Margaret Atwood, Ada Limón, Akseli Gallen-Kallela, Richard Siken, @maieste, Madeline Miller, Holly Warburton, Shauna Barbosa, Benjamin Alire Sáenz

one of the hardest things to learn as a depressed former Gifted Kid™ is that half-assed is better than nothing. take the 50%, 40%, even 20% job. scrubbing your face is better than not taking a shower at all. picking up your clothes is better than never cleaning. nibbling on some bread is better than starving.

DO THINGS HALFWAY. NOW YOU’RE 100% BETTER OFF THAN YOU WERE BEFORE.

me impatiently to the little french cat boiling me in a stew: chat am I cooked

The Last Shadow Puppets at Shangri-La Studios By Zackery Michael, 2015