I Want To Change My Theme Again...

trying to get motivation to write again... it kind of sucks ngl

STARLIGHT, s. black

sirius was used to you calling him pet names. even if they were completely crazy. he did place some of them on the no list, but he loved how creative you were with them.

you started calling him random nicknames out of fun. it was so funny to see him go red at the name, whether it was adorable or sexual.

"peach?" he sat at the end of the bed. he was working on a lego sculpture for james.

"yes, gorgeous?" you placed your magazine on your lap. eyes meeting his.

"i lost a piece, i can't seem to see it. i tried looking. can you help me find it?" he quickly placed the sculpture in progress down on the blanket, carefully crawling out of the bed. you closed your magazine to the nightstand before standing.

"what piece, honey?" you walked over to where he was sitting, to look at the booklet.

"it's that small white one." he quickly placed his finger to show you the piece, you dropped the book before searching the small piles he had made.

"look around the floor, princess."

everything piece was in its color pile. you circled your finger around the pile before moving to see if he had accidentally placed it in another pile. sirius was looking on his hands and knees, placing his head against the tile floor to look under the bed.

among the dark blue pile, you found the little white brick. "i found it, starlight." sirius quickly jumped to his knees, placing both hands on the bed.

"you did, thank you! thank you, baby." he quickly jumped to his feet and practically ran towards you. you handed it to him, before feeling him smash his lips onto yours. "also call me starlight more. it's hot."

"ok, sugar." you turned on your heels and walked back to your spot on the bed, sitting quickly and grabbed the magazine. you watched as sirius placed the piece before finding another piece.

LONELY NIGHTS, s. black

the empty side of the bed. his side of the bed. empty.

“how could you?” you yelled, throwing the letters in his face. “how could i? how could i?! you're never here? never-” he paused, brushing his fingers in-between the locks of his hair “it was a mistake.” he muttered, before locking in your eyes.

“a mistake sirius! a mistake is spilling your drink everywhere! a mistake is dropping something! starting a relationship with someone, let alone our friend. that isn't a mistake!” you spit back, back before storming into your room, slamming the door closed.

him with her. her of all people. her. what did she have that you didn't? you were there for him through everything. through hogwarts. through the war. you and him. he threw it all away for her.

sirius knocked on the door, throwing you out of your thoughts. "i'm sorry, please forgive me." you stood behind the door before walking to the bed and sitting down. "peach? i'm sorry. please forgive me. I'll do anything to make it right."

"please go away. i'm going to bed, when i wake i don't want you to be here." you slowly sulked into your bed. the bed you and him have slept in for the past years. the bed, you had made love, had spilled secrets, had cried in.

"i understand peach" you could hear his footsteps retract from the door. hearing the ruffling of things before hearing the front door open and close.

you groaned before fully getting up. wiping your face from the eye dust, before walking into your shared bathroom. thinking of what'll happen when you see him next.

notes: honestly i love angst... anyways hope you liked it <333

@academia-lucifer

i have way too many drafts and there mostly just plot ideas :/

Me on tumblr search bar looking for fics:

hmm..who am I going to be in love with today?

COLD FEET, r. lupin

you stood in front of the mirror. your white dress hitting the floor. the vail tucked into your nicely done hair. you had butterflies swirling all around inside of you. you tried hard to stomach the tears that wanted to fall out.

you loved remus, truly you did but marriage was scary. it was always a what if. what if it doesn't work? what if this what if that. you knew it would be just the two of you for the rest of your lives. inside that small cottage. you wanted it just like that too. remus wanted it more.

"you look beautiful y/n." lily said knocking you out of your thoughts.

"thank you, lils" you said ironing your dress with your hands. "am i supposed to be this nervous?" you said turning and looking at her.

"of course! your just having cold feet. god knows i was nervous marrying mary." she said while fixing her eyeshadow

"can you get him?" you asked making her stop and look at you.

"it's bad luck for-"

"i know, lily. i just need to talk to him, is all." you reassured her

"oh alright, give me a moment." she said walking out the room quickly.

you let out a shaky breath before turning back to the mirror. it felt like an entirety, waiting for him to come.

you heard a simple knock alerting you that it was remus. you quickly spun on your heels before cracking the door. "remmy?"

"hi dove, everything alright?" he questioned, he was nervous. there were so many thoughts going through his head. what if you wanted to call it off. what if this. what if that.

"everything's fine, rem. just needed to hear your voice." you mumbled, you slipped your hand through the door, feeling him press his lips against it before holding it in his.

"good. good."

"remmy, everything's going to be ok, right?" you asked, you were nervous but that was a given.

"everything's fine, love." he reassured, rubbing his thumb against the back of your hand.

"i didn't mean to scare you. just having some jitters, is all."

"i understand, 'it's normal' james keeps saying. dove?"

"yeah?" you could feel him slide your engagement ring up and down your ring finger.

"you want this, right? you're not scared of what the future is going to bring us?" he questioned, letting go of your hand entirely.

"of course i'm scared, it's a new chapter for the both of us, but i also know that you're the one i want to be."

"i should finish getting ready though, i don't want to be late." he joked

"yeah, don't want to be late to our own event." you added to his joke causing him to chuckle.

"alright, i'll leave you to it then."

"i love you, remus." you said before he turned and walked away.

"i love you too, dove." he said before shutting the door.

i want to watch star wars

i want to sit in a field of grass and flowers