Damn, This Is Beutiful

Can anyone from Tumblr tell me why tf I feel so awful? I have medical issues going on and all of my doctors keep sending me to more doctors who send me to more doctors and at this I'm pulling money out of my ass. I tell them what's wrong with me and they look at me like a bumbling idiot.

I'm in so much pain I quite literally want to die plus the seizures that have no EEG activity. I literally have a book of symptoms I give to all of my doctors.