Do You Ever Look At The Stars And Wonder If You Should’ve Been Born A Thousand Light Years From Where

I can feel it breathing. It presses itself against my ribs as if to escape their cage. It grows with each breath, making it hard for me to exhale. I can't sleep. Can't shake the hunger. It wants more, it wants out.  It wants me.

In my head I imagine a beast. A one-eyed hell-hound, a bitch with tacky fur & uncut nails. Restless, howling with the darkness within me. In reality it'd probably look more like me. Just.. wilder.

The day is done. I flick the half-burned cigarette in a nearby puddle. As the water ripples, for a moment I can see it's reflection beside mine.  We walk away.

Some days I will look into the mirror and see a stranger. Or looking back at me might be someone I've been searching desperately on another day, yet now grieve to see. It is not that I'm a stranger to myself, my soul I know, but these expressions, they don't belong on a face I'd read as mine. This form betrays me. These feet can't carry, and this voice can't say.. it frustrates me. And I search. I run these fingertips across it, sometimes enjoying bits of it, sometimes wondering if there's somehow I might mold it to better fit. But the truth is there's nothing much wrong with the body. I might admire it even, were I not trapped in it. But it doesn't feel like it should belong to me, doesn't feel right on me.

Korttipakka

🃏 (peli)kortti/kortit

A  ässä/ässät J  jätkä/jätkät Q  kuningatar/kuningattaret / akka/akat K  kuningas/kuninkaat

🃏 jokeri/jokerit

♦️ ruutu/ruudut ♣️ risti/ristit ♥️ hertta/hertat ♠️ pata/padat

🔴 punainen/punaiset ⚫ musta/mustat

Open your eyes & see. For once, actually look at what’s in front of you...

I tell the truth more often than it seems.

people just tend not to take you seriously

when you talk about things in a tone™

with shining eyes & a manic smile..

They say there's a time and place for everything

But I strugle to find ones for sleep

art films, thrillers, camp horror: this is what's wrong with the world

us, the children of that world: um, yes please?

I wanna play 7 in Heaven With strangers in neon lights Feeling a little too high