I Honestly Don't Think QFit Will Ever Confess, At Least VERBALLY, To Loving QPac. Wanna Know Why?

I honestly don't think qFit will ever confess, at least VERBALLY, to loving qPac. Wanna know why?

He needs to keep the wiggle room. He needs to still be able to escape with his heart intact if everything falls apart. I think qFit plans an escape route for everything, including his relationships. I don't think he even does it consciously, but no matter how much he loves something, no matter how sure he is that he'll stay this time, he ALWAYS needs a way out. It's just part of his nature.

By holding his tongue and keeping his confession to himself, he can keep qPac at a comfortable distance. Maybe 'baby steps' isn't so much about taking things slow out of caution. They're to stall himself. Keep himself away.

If he confesses, that's it. He's locked in. He'll be too attached. And if he's too attached, and everything goes to hell (Everything goes to hell eventually, in Fit's mind), he'll be dragged down with the ship.

And he can't have that. He's FitMC! Renowned 2b historian! Decade long survivalist! Veteran warrior! The Scourge of Summermelon! He WILL survive. He always does.

He wants it. Subconsciously, he wants to be that close to someone so bad. He's great with 'acquaintance', 'friend' he can manage, but 'boyfriend' is just too personal. Too binding. Too permanent.

If he can just keep it up, Pac will be happy, and he won't even have to get too close, right?

If he can just keep it up, he'll be happy, finally.

Right?