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Hayley Williams YAAASS

You are trapped in an elevator with the person on your lockscreen. Who is it?

Reblog with who you get stuck with~

Confession: I used to belong to trump culture.

Not entirely willingly, mind. I was young, religious, and I made the naïve mistake in thinking that all Christians were like the ones I had encountered at my home church: warm, tolerant, kind. I fell in love, and we did what young, hormonal Christian teenagers did: rushed into a marriage.

I realized my mistake almost immediately, but it took far too long to get out.

Personally, I endured abuse at the hands of my new husband—mental, physical, sexual, economic, emotional. You name it, he did it. Brutal is an understatement. He systematically broke me down until I was a shell of a human being. I’m still dealing with the emotional fallout and physical side effects, and I probably will be for another decade at least.

That’s personally, but let’s talk his family. Because he was an extreme case, yes, but he was raised with the idea that women existed to keep their mouths shut and their legs open. I spit out two children faster than I could whip my head, because birth control wasn’t part of god’s grand plan for my life. I was fulfilling my purpose as a mother, and wasn’t that great? My husband didn’t want the first baby. He wanted me for himself, see? Abortion was unthinkable, but he fully expected to carry a baby—my baby—to term, then give it away.

Keeping him was my first rebellion. Keeping the next one was my second.

In the time I belonged to that family, I watched my mother-in-law endure the same, though less extreme mistreatment. I watched every young female family member be groped by the family patriarch. “That’s just how it is.” I was shamed for making a fuss about it. I watched an older cousin try to sexually assault my teenage sister-in-law and she was the one who felt ashamed. We women made family dinners while the men sat on their asses. My husband and I lived with his parents for a short time. She and I would go to work each morning—an hour each way—with our husbands sitting in their robes in the living room, playing video games. When we returned hours later, weary, exhausted, they hadn’t moved. The standard greeting? “What’s for dinner.”

That’s his family, and yes, some families are sexist, but let’s talk about church. That’s where all of this is validated, encouraged, taught. Imagine my shock, when I went to my new husbands’ family church and encountered muted xenophobia and racism, a heavy dose of homophobia, and some damned overt sexism (see above.)

Equal roles, but different. Sound familiar? This is still being taught to little girls today.

In church, I listened with quiet disgust as pastors preached about how awful my sister—one of the gays—was. I piped up and asked how that sexual sin was any different than the two young church kids who’d just been caught “in a bad way”, soon to expect their first baby. Sexual sin is sexual sin, isn’t it? I sure did get an earful for that one. We did church boycotts: Disney, Target. Every Sunday School class: Job, cookies, and lets pray God saves the moos-lims before they all come over and blow us up. We revered people with white savior complexes who went to be jesus’s hands and feet and save the poor, helpless Africans.

Hate and ignorance, wrapped up in the holy Scripture. Hallelujah.

Meanwhile, I endured this abuse. This abuse, and every door slammed in my face as my husband hit me, tortured me. “Stay true to your vows,” the pastor would say. “You have communication issues,” our sister-in-law would tell us. My mother-in-law: “Linds, you just have to accept it. Love is a choice.”

“But what about the part where it says that husbands are to love their wives like Christ loves the church?” I asked.

My brother in law, joking: “This is why women aren’t supposed to speak in church.”

This America is alive and kicking, kids. It’s never gone away; it’s just been lurking, behind closed doors. “Pass the casual racism and meat loaf, would you? And get me a glass of water while you’re up. Ketchup, too.” What I’m scared about, truly, is that I know this. And these ideas are now validated. Now mainstream. Almost 50% of our population believes this is a good idea.

“It’s our time to take America back.”

What in the hell, if they’ve been saying these things behind closed doors, and if they believe them In The Name Of God—what in the hell are they going to say in the open, now? What in the hell are they going to do?

The 50s are revered as the aspirational yester-year, days gone by. Progress, as we call it, is godlessness to them. We, the godless libs, took Jesus out of schools. We’ve gone wrong ever since.

This is the America people want back, and that’s my first fear.

The second is this:

I got out. And I’m terrified that this, my success story, won’t happen anymore.

I’m the rare statistic. I un-brainwashed and educated myself. I got counseling (against every Christian advice) to treat severe post-partum depression. In the process of becoming a healthier person, I realized what a goddamn mess I was.

It took three tries and a pastor-pseudo-therapist legitimately telling me, “You know if he hits you again, Linds, I’m going to have to tell you to leave.” 

All regretful, like it was bad news.

“Why should I stick around and wait for it to happen again?” I asked.

He didn’t have an answer. I left the next week.

It took a few boldfaced lies (it’s temporary, it’s just a separation), and a few miracles, and a large support system of family and friends who all but plucked me out of that hell.

For leaving? My price was excommunication. From his family, our friends, our church. I am the heathen who Divorced my Husband and broke our home. In that entire city, only three people talk to me now.

(No loss, but it took a long time to recognize that.)

I never, ever would have made it on my own. I had two small children, a new job that barely paid a living wage, and I was, as I’ve said, a shell of a human being. I left him and went straight to the human services office. Without subsidized childcare, healthcare, and food supplements, we would have starved or been homeless. It never would have been possible.

These are the services that will probably be cut first.

How will anyone in my situation ever be able to leave? They won’t. Not to mention federal funding for shelters, crisis counseling for families, healthcare for abused women, and legal services for domestic violence victims. Throw in a court system that doesn’t value women, and a cultural mentality that believes what happens behind closed doors should stay behind closed doors… What hope do abused, trapped women have? None in hell.

If this is what makes America great again, I want out. I’ve been there, done that, and I’m never, ever doing it again.

You’ll take it back over my cold, lifeless body.

I bind you, 2017, from doing harm. Harm against other people and harm against yourself.

Like to charge, reblog to cast.

It ain’t much, but at least we can try.

me: this fun and lighthearted movie made me happy, therefore it is a good movie

film critics:

After the shower.  Oil on linen.  An experiment in how many water drops I could paint before I went insane. (i lost count)

we are fucked

i mentioned the possibility of this happening in my last post but i had no idea it would be this bad. we are being put in a desperate situation because of the incompetency of the educational system and we will be evicted once this financial aid gets taken away. we are students living off of one disability income and student aid. basically what happened was we went to the financial aid office at my wife’s college and asked REPEATEDLY whether or not it would be okay for her to drop a class which they assured her time and time again that there would be no problem doing so. after she had already dropped it they suddenly say it’s a problem and that she MIGHT owe back money that already has gone to rent and bills. we will have no way to pay our rent if and WHEN the aid gets taken away. i am unable to get a job without her SSI being taken away. we have no support from family or anyone local to help us through this situation so i have to turn to you guys again. we need 1016.00 within 45 days or we will have no means of living. im trying to get back into school but that’s a long process that is complicated now that im married. literally days after our wedding and have to deal with all of this.

if you want to be rude, just don’t. this really is no fault of our own because we had talked to several people at the college who assured us it would be fine without explaining anything about having to owe back money and giving misinformation after misinformation, which now is somehow our fault and no one will listen to anything we have to say after spending all day at the college. WE WOULD DO ANYTHING EVEN PAY SOMEONE BACK THE MONEY if her aid wasn’t taken away we would be able to pay back this amount, but they are saying it needs to be paid within 45 days which wouldn’t be enough time.

im desperate for this to be over with. we were hoping to be financially stable finally until this happened and as a gay couple no one wants to help or deal with us. we’re basically cornered. let me know if i can do ANYTHING, and absolutely anything would help to get out of this debt even the change you have leftover in your account. i can write, help with homework, i can do pretty much anything.

my PayPal email is divynem@gmail.com and its the same email for my venmo. if you don’t have either of those and still want to help, let me know and I will figure it out. And if you cant or dont want to help, PLEASE at least reblog. im sure a lot of other people have been in this situation or similar but after everything we’ve been through i don’t want to have to lose the only stability we have and have to give our animals to others or away.

Zodiac as Fruit

Aries: Grapefruit (explosive but stingy)

Taurus: Strawberry (sweet but bland)

Gemini: Cherry (juicy but it’s double trouble)

Cancer: Kiwi (nice but gets the tongue sore)

Leo: Melon (tasty but dense)

Virgo: Green Apple (delicate but sour)

Libra: Grape (candy-like but floppy)

Scorpio: Passion fruit (Intense but meaty)

Sagittarius: Papaya (nutritious but strong)

Capricorn: Pomegranate (satisfying but hard to reach)

Aquarius: Mango (alluring but easily changes)

Pisces: Pineapple (fresh but lowkey hits you)

Signs In a Shady Fight And How To Face Them

(A shady fight is a tense conversation full of shady remarks, personal attacks and it usually goes off the top pretty fast)

Fire Signs: Go full on fight mode, sick of it. To stop them, expose all their bad traits and be sure you have people to rely on (possibly not Pisceans, they wouldn’t win over a Leo easily for example) so that they feel like they better stop. Also facts can help a lot.

Water Signs: Damn good at throwing the best temper tantrums, they can make you look guilty even when you’re not. Do not answer back because it’s something they’re really good at doing, just show them facts and tell them to grow up and stop being pathetic.

Air Signs: Will avoid conflict and just tell you to get lost, just let them know you’re getting pretty done with their shit and that if they want to win this argument they better come up with stuff and stop saying nonsense. If they do, act like an Earth sign and be the adult.

Earth Signs: They tend to act snarky, mean and superior to intimidate you and feel bigger than they are. Just hit a weak spot and act like you’re having the best fun ever. They’ll slowly stop trying to hit you with facts and internally will feel confused.

YAAASSS FAM

Celebrities who practice witchcraft, paganism and other forms of occultism or pantheism~

Björk

On numerous occasions, Bjork has admitted interest in metaphysics and the occult in general. From a 1995 interview, “I think she took me to all the occult creatures of Iceland… I think I probably believe most of it, actually. I’ve got Pluto in a very important place, and that’s what I’m about. I have to re-create the universe every morning when I wake up. And kill it in the evening, which is a bit outrageous, but there you go.” This statement points to an interest in the occult, and of course the zodiac. Bjrok’s first band was on the British anarchist label, Crass Records. The band was called KUKL, which is the Icelandic word for “witchcraft.”

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Azealia Banks

Recently the “212” singer announced her practice of “brujería” (Spanish for witchcraft) and her bizarre nature made a bit more sense. That is until she posted a video on her Instagram revealing she had been sacrificing chickens in her closet! In December of 2016, Banks posted a video of her herself cleaning up what appeared to be blood and at least two dead chickens while wearing goggles. While literally no one is surprised by her interest in witchcraft, killing chickens is pretty extreme. In an interview with Broadly, she said that she got her interest in witchcraft from her mother who would practice “white table magic.“ “Real witches do real things,” Banks said. If by real she means slaughter birds from the comfort of her own home, then totally.

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Kate Bush

Everyone already knows this one, as Bush is very open with her love of the occult.Her 1993 album The Red Shoes is credited with being an occult retelling of a Hans Christian Anderson fairytale. One song from the album featured lyrics taken from the Lesser Banning Ritual of the Pentagram, a ceremonial ritual used in modern occultism. She also has a song titled “Waking the Witch” perhaps a reference to her own growing interest in the occult. She has stated about the song, “What fascinated me in doing that song was the idea of a witch-hunter hiding behind the priesthood, as a guise, and coming to get this woman who is not a witch, but he wants to make her so.” Her music paved the way for similar artists such as FKA Twigs and Grimes (who also has made the list), another possible musically talented witch.

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Stevie Nicks

The Fleetwood Mac singer has denied being a witch time and time again, but the denial itself is cause for speculation. Her song “Rhiannon” tells the story of an ancient Welsh witch goddess. The show American Horror Story: Coven asserts that Nicks is indeed a white witch while discussing the song. 

Nicks even appeared on the show herself as a white witch, further cementing her witchcraft status. She has been seen wearing pagan inspired jewelry while performing and has also been quoted as saying, “I totally believe in magic. Because my life, I think, has been very magic, and magical things have come true for me time after time after time.” While she denies being involved in witchcraft itself, she has mentioned that she dabbles in Goddess Worship.

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Jennifer Lopez

Jennifer Lopez’s grandmother lives in Miami and has an affinity for the Caribbean form of witchcraft known as “santeria.” The claim is that Lopez’s grandmother does rituals, with and without Lopez herself, to help benefit her career.

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Grimes

Grimes refers to her musical style as “Witch House”, a subgenre of electronic music that uses occult and dark themes. The Witch House visual aesthetic can also be seen in her music videos. She claims the album “Visions” was created after performing a spell that required her to not sleep or eat for days and create the music with the effects of sleep deprivation.

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Fairuza Balk

The Craft is known for showing just how cool and trendy witches can be, but Fairuza Balk, one of the four main cast members, believes in Wicca in real life. Balk is openly pagan and at one time owned an occult pagan shop called Panpipes Magickal Marketplace, which claims to be the oldest occult store in the U.S. She purchased the shop in 1995 while working on The Craft but reportedly sold it in 2001. 

Wicca, or Pagan Witchcraft, is a contemporary form of paganism. Wicca, as it is currently practiced, is still a fairly new religion, leaving a lot of room for interpretation and practice. Balk and her fellow cast members from The Craft may not have been practicing Wicca, but they definitely were witches. Balk’s character Nancy goes on quite the magic sparked rampage in that movie, while the real Balk sells scented candles online. She has been quoted with saying, “People don’t understand witchcraft, they just make fun of it, but is is something very sacred to me.”

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Daryl Hall

Who knew the blonde haired half of Hall & Oates was interested in witchcraft? “Around 1974, I graduated into the occult, and spent a solid six or seven years immersed in the Kabbala and the Chaldean, Celtic, and Druidic traditions [and] ancient techniques for focusing the inner flame,” he said when interviewed by Penthouse in 1987. During this time he worked on an album with Robert Fripp of King Crimson called “Sacred Songs.” A track titled “ Without Tears” is based on the book Magick without Tears by Aleister Crowley. 

The pop rock singer has also claimed to be related to Crowley and the great-grandson of a male witch. Many of Hall’s lyrics allude to his interest in esoteric magic but it seems that recently the singer has cooled off on his occult studies. 

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Viggo Mortensen

Mortensen has claimed on several occasions to be a proud Pagan and openly shows his worship of Norse gods. He has several Pagan symbols tattooed on his body and always wears his necklace of Mjolnir and the Pagan cross.

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Yoko Ono

Ono has asserted on several occasions that she practices New Age Witchcraft. In a recent interview she is quoted saying:

“I think that all women are witches, in the sense that a witch is a magical being. And a wizard, which is a male version of a witch, is kind of revered, and people respect wizards. But a witch, my god, we have to burn them. It’s the male chauvinistic society that we’re living in for the longest time, 3,000 years or whatever. And so I just wanted to point out the fact that men and women are magical beings. We are very blessed that way, so I’m just bringing that out. Don’t be scared of witches, because we are good witches, and you should appreciate our magical power.”

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Robert Plant and Jimmy Page

The creators of Led Zeppelin are both known occultists, Page perhaps being a bit more interested in Satanic magic than Plant, who has written dozens of songs based around Gaelic/Celtic Paganism, Druidism and Norse mythology.

In their unnamed album, each member of the band is assigned a sigil from the “Book of Signs”. Robert chose the the feather of Ma’at, the Egyptian goddess of justice and fairness, and is the emblem of a writer (ie song lyrics).  It can be found in “The Sacred Symbols of Mu” by Colonel James Churchward.  This is not a common symbol, but does turn up in Egyptian and Red Indian texts. Jimmy chose “Zoso”, which is a Saturnical symbol that has multiple meanings both astrological and demonic. It is mentioned in the Grand Grimoire and Aleister Crowley’s writings.

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Jayne Mansfield

Perhaps the biggest sex symbol of the 60s alongside Marilyn Monroe, Mansfield was actually a member of Anton LaVey’s Church of Satan. LaVey had given her the title “High Priestess” of San Francisco’s Church of Satan and she was also rumored to have been in a relationship with LaVey. 

Despite her Satanic practices, her family insisted she have a Methodist minister conduct her funeral ceremony.

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(Feel free to add any I may have forgotten!)

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