So. Uh.

Girl, I genuenly thought first that you were gonna say he's sleeping.

But on the other hand, Nightmare can take away negative emotions to use them, right (Or at least that's my headcanon, idk how you feel about that)? But he isn't taking away his negative feelings, because he enjoys it. And that could be one of the reasons why he wanted Killer to join him in the first place. He wanted to feel all that negativity stronger, he wanted to enjoy it more, so he came up with the solution that he brings the source, A.K.A. Killer closer to himself.

And so, Nightmare isn't letting Cross, Dust and Horror help him neither, because with their help his negativity source would get weaker in minutes.

i don't think we talk about when Killer isn't smirking or causing chaos.

Those dark moments he has alone in his room when he can't think of anything to do, or is too unwell to get up and do anything. Nothing can distract him from the horrors of his trauma.

Hatred having no outlet other than himself.

Wunky dinner

Black Sesame Milk

Help an audhd + disabled trans dude move out and get away from his violent unstable mother (please)

pre-tldr: i need help with funds for moving into a new place, my mom is very irresponsible, violent and irrational, constantly yelling/stomping, i feel very unsafe and uncomfortable, we have over 15 cats she refuses to get rid of and its a huge drain on my mental health. its filthy here and i NEED to get out. ok full post now

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Hi 👋 my name is Milo. I'm 19, american, transmasc, audhd, got severe chronic pain and no medication for any of it.

I currently live in an RV with my mom and have for around a year and a half after being homeless for about a year before that. We have a genuinely ABSURD number of cats (over 15 couped up in this tiny space), which is not only terrible for the cats, its terrible for my mental health, my moms, and is a huge drain on our funds. We can barely afford to take care of them and no matter how much I plead with her to take some of them to a shelter or do SOMETHING she refuses to, so that should start painting a picture of the type of person I'm dealing with here.

Her temper is incredibly, INCREDIBLY short. She's impossible to be around, refuses to improve, is physically violent to our general surroundings / herself / occasionally the cats. She has thrown things at me before. I generally dont feel safe or comfortable, and any time I try to broach the topic of moving out or getting her to stop any of the aforementioned behavior, she guilt trips me. Literally as I'm typing this she's been caterwauling, stomping and throwing things. What prompted this? No idea! This happens genuinely every single day. This is not an exaggeration. It's destroying my brain and I can't handle it anymore. This is going to sound particularly pitiful but I do have capital T Trauma related to someone breaking into our house when I was home and loud noises / stomping / yelling does make me INCREDIBLY anxious, and no matter how many times I tell her this she doesn't give a shit.

She does not want me leaving, won't let me learn how to drive and (whether intentionally or not) obstructs any attempts I make to function as an adult. I'm currently self-employed on commissions, but it's not a living wage or something I could make into one (and remain sane. or keep up with). I'm actively searching for a job and have applied to several (fingers crossed) (will update this post when I get one) and, ideally, will be moving in with a friend of mine sometime in the late summer, but I need help with funds for moving in/covering rent for a bit/etc.

Since I do take commissions, if you want one of those and want to help with funds that way, that'll be an avenue for giving me money. I won't have them open 24/7 just to make things more manageable, but that'll be an option some of the time at least. Ill add a link to an info post on that in this post when I do re-open them.

Otherwise, if you just wanna chip in (it would be VERY. VERY VERY VERY APPRECIATED):

Payp4l: millowo <- preferred

Venm0: miiilowo

GOAL: 0/4K

see this ^^^ ? thats my art im gonna have comms open soon ooh ahh HERES A BUNCH MORE TO LOOK AT IF YOURE INTERESTED BELOW THE CUT

terror bird

Dark cream week day 4: smell (chemical warfare)

I have nothing clever, nor actually good looking today. Take the sillies

"The prophecy of the darkness god and the winter child"

I'll post the story as soon as I'm finished with it as well as the other prophecy, but have this for now Credits below

Godly possessions au by me

Cross by Jakei

Nightmare by Jokublog

Also have the drawings I made of my sona like a week ago but forgot to post here (I know they're blurry but I'm not capable of making better photos rn)

Friendy this is prob the last post y'all getting in the next two weeks

Sharing some UT/UTMV google docs and pdfs as I love collecting those like marbles. Will add more if I find more (you're welcome to suggest/share new ones if you have them!)

[tagged ppl ignore dis if u wantto]

Undertale's Parasocial Relationships

Tildazi's Undertale.ini Research

Tildazi's Undertale Theories & Research

The Ultimate Sans and Alphys Friendship doc

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UTMV Handbook

Canon Underswap Research

Canon Underswap Research Summary

Common canon Dreamtale misconceptions by @xxtha-blog

Canon Dream Analysis by @xxtha-blog

Dreamtale info by @xxtha-blog

Ink info translated by @fl00mie

Fresh info by @sandeewithtwoe

Killer info by unknown

Othertale info by @howlsofbloodhounds

Dusttale (1) by @what-have-i-unleashed

Dusttale (2) by @irriska

Fluffytale info by @cloudtaleblog

Abysstale info by @toffeebrew

Full Fatal_Error lore Analysis by @casualpeanutcollection

Storyshift reboot writeup by @ut-storyshift