I Was Not Made To “adhere To Genre Conventions”. I Was Born To Run Along A Beach Barefoot And Nude

brb becoming him

angelstone doodle!!!!! i am missing them always :'))))))

writing about dnd characters is just about writing an idealized version of yourself getting emotional closure and feeling secure in their place in life. that’s why it’s fantasy writing.

im gonna start a charity that will pair every “i hate small talk, tell me something deep” man with a homeless or elderly person who doesn’t often get a chance to talk with people. them mfs do not mess around. today a man told me that i had received 11 thousand blessings in the span of my lifetime without knowing my fucking name. and do you wanna know what? kevin was right. i have.

everyone we need to start fatedposting. okay?

been on a rlly horrible country music kick and i’ve gotta say that the temptation to revive the old-school country fated au has got me in a stranglehold. a kranglehold if you’re crass. the bayou vibes. motherfuck.

i don’t think any of you understand. the impetus, the fucking click behind scythebelts for me, is not strictly romantic. it is that sylnan, his entire life, has been trying to hold on to everything he can and he never gets to. and velrisa, god fucking bless her, has been waiting for someone to hold on to her like that, like nobody really has.

the impetus, the fucking spark, the starting point for everything i write for them, is based upon the gutsense fucking horror of seeing someone reach for you and not knowing if they mean to catch you for certain or just until you’re not useful.

everything else is just fluff and filler. the cleric/rogue dramatics, the high contrast, the jokes, the mutual admiration, the aesthetics- all of it is fluff and filler. good, but just not why i love it.

at core and center, they are holding on to each other until they are bleeding from the goddamn fingernails because nothing else is willing to stay as static and calm as they are. nobody else- not as though it is a personal failing on anyone else’s part, it is simply the way things go- is willing to cling on as hard for some chance at steady ground. sylnan and vel are. that’s what makes me write em.

i’m three types of high rn and i’ve just gotta say i fucking love the fated. they have it all. old man yaoi. everything.

posting this a little early BUT i wanna know so i can post with efficiency:

again. you’ll get both. it’s a matter of how soon. also i do still have to like. finish the end of the br’aad/ugarth one but it’s long enough that i can keep a decent posting schedule for it.

smiley face. heart emoji. what have you.

hey guys i survived the show i was running!!!!!! i’m baaaaaack!!!!!! and mentally illllllllll!!!!!! tag me in everything ever i love you all so much!!!