Tags: Fluff and Angst, Angst, Hurt/No comfort, Friends to Lovers, Slow Burn, Short fic, Pre-Gravity Falls, Existential Crisis lol
Concept: The reader is an ambiguous void-like, abyssal god who met Bill Cipher in the Nightmare realm. Pre-Gravity Falls timeline!
Prologue
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You were destruction and he was creation. He was light where you were darkness.
Or something corny like that.
Time and space held no meaning here, in the Nightmare Realm. Really, what could be consider a nap could be the death and birth of many planets. You can't remember the last time a living being graced your part of the void. Then again, no one really liked living near a blackhole like you did. This was all you've ever known. You were born in the void, existed within it, and slept within the confines of its emptiness.
Until one day, a bright yellow light entered your life.
He wasn't the first entity to wander into this abyss, but he was the first to greet you with no ill intent. He came one night, in a brilliant blue light, flames licking his frame as he entered into existence, here. A single, dark eye opened before you.
"Where am I?" he asked.
"Dimension 5150-B," you softly answered.
The nightmare realm's cosmic garbage dump, really. Where all things end.
He tilted his head, his eye crinkling in curiosity, then delight.
"Well, this place sucks. Time to liven it up!"
With a snap of his fingers, the darkness around you warped and shuddered. The darkness gave way to light, then, became filled with life.
Suddenly, the void was filled with stars, planets, moons, and suns. Oceans of them rippled through the sky in waves. Since then, you stopped feeling so alone. The silence was replaced with the sounds of life. Illusions of places and things you've never seen before danced all around you. In no time, the void was filled with his jovial voice and your soft laughter.
Bill Cipher never ran out of things to say to fill the silence. Spinning tales and coaxing laughter out of you. He always had something new to share with you. He enjoyed the way you listened with rapt attention as he weaved tale after tale for both of your amusement.
Some days, he'll tell you of a world different than the one you were bound in. A dimension beyond your understanding, full of colors you've yet to see. Full of people who spoke languages you've never heard before. Planets that survive off only one moon, stars that grow and become planets. Worlds that endure despite having collapsing suns, darker nights, and billions of people.
Other days, he'd tell you of his home.
But those stories, they never stayed.
Those stories escaped you like sand through your fingers. Tragic as they were, your mind would fight to hold onto them. You never understood why, but they always fade as soon as Bill's voice would turn quiet and small. He'd look away and it would be as if the moment never happened.
Sadness didn't fit Bill's bright yellow colors, you thought. You'd spend the rest of eternity making sure he was happy if you had to!
It was your silent vow.
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Up above, the endless blanket of stars watched as you and Bill sat next to each other.
You held your breath as a golden glow washed across the barren rock around you. From underneath the earth, tendrils of black twirled upwards. They writhed each curling into a small, black bulb.
Bill always had an affinity for creation- or weirdness, as he called it.
Where he breathed life and curiosities into the nightmare realm, you were the abyss that hungrily consumed it all.
You watched with bated breath as the flowers around you swayed gently. Bill watched with an upturned eye as he theatrically flicked his wrist towards the field.
One by one, the bulbs unfurled, blooming into delicate black petals that glistened faintly with impossible colors. You smiled as the last one slowly opened before you.
"Go on, take it, it's yours!"
Yours.
The words echoed in your mind as you reached for a flower. It seemed to sigh and wilt slightly as you plucked it off the ground.
With care, you brushed the pads of your fingers over its petals. It was unlike anything you've seen before.
However, it soon crumbled and turned into ash the moment you touched its stem.
You pulled your hand back as the ash fell through your fingers. Bill plucked another flower from the ground and held it out to you, his single eye crinkled in amusement. He held it close to your face for you to admire.
Something in you melted at the gesture.
Bill brought so much more than life to the Nightmare realm. With him came warmth and laughter.
He told you of impossible futures, dreams, and nightmares beyond the veil of the world you two were in. You shared in his dream of breaching that veil and existing where there was natural light and more people.
He loved to shower you with gifts like this. You happily accepted all of it, cherishing these tiny gestures from a friend.
Like clockwork, you two would meet in this barren little rock you found in the Nightmare realm. Sharing stories and secrets. Mapping out unnamed constellations and writing your name in the stars- sometimes literally!
Bill moved heaven and earth for you, and you reveled in this. Your heart fluttered every time he used his all-seeing eye to describe beautiful places for you. You memorized the way his black hands would cradle stars and move them in the shape of your name in the sky.
You wouldn't trade this for the world, being beside your best friend in a lonely, unforgiving dimension. A part of you hoped Bill felt the same warmth in your chest you felt when he was around.
You didn't realize you would have to give it all up someday.
You'd look back and realize that this was the last gesture of kindness Bill Cipher would show you for a very, very long time.
He disappeared one day, taking all the light with him.
Time mercilessly passed in cold, breathless, silence.
Until one day, he came back.
No longer the same friend you knew before.
Talking about a single bill book page under here
The thing about this page is, for something that was supposedly ripped out, it doesn't really contain anything that strikes me as needing.... to have been... ripped out.
Sure, he talks about being lonely here and maybe that could be embarrassing to him, but it's not like he hasn't talked about being an outcast before, his entire about page has a section dedicated to his trials and tribulations with his peers when he was younger.
Additionally, there's many times in the journal where he seems to have written something he feels he shouldn't have. Though ripping that thing out isnt usually his method of choice. He much prefers to scratch things out.
Why couldn't the page have existed like this? Or even, if the entire thing truly is too embarrassing to have in your journal, why did you write it there in the first place?
It seems to me that the only reason this page was included with the other Bill pages was to set up the narrative of Ford's loneliness. (That within Journal 3 proper isn't really needed, because one can already ascertain that...). Doyalist reason? Sure, Alex is trying to set up his story. Watsonian reason? Naturally you turn it around and see it as Bill trying to set up his own story.
This page's existence in general isn't the only beef I have with it though. While we're meant to accept it on the basis that he ripped this out, Ford engaging with personal feelings, especially negative ones like this in such a blatant way is... unusual. I'd say he's much more prone to distracting himself away from that sort of thing with his work.
For the journal especially, this page would have to take place pretty early, as it's supposed to be pre-Bill. Which is weird, considering a later page in the original J3...
Of course, like I said, we the audience can understand Ford is lonely. And I'm not trying to say he doesn't know it himself, but he does not engage with it.
The thing about this page though, is that it's much more than just a single spot where Ford's own loneliness is mentioned. It's a turning point for the way Ford writes. Prior to Fiddlefords arrival, Stanford takes a few pages to introduce himself, then everything following is either an anomaly page or the occasional muse page. Like I said before, it's all very work-focused.
After Fiddleford comes to town, Ford is forced to feel the full extent how lonely he's truly been, and he starts to write a lot of pages of his and Fiddleford's adventures together, including his feelings during. (insert everyones favorite lines here:)
But he also starts to write about something else...
Over
and over
and over
again...
Fiddleford's renewed presence in his life really opened some mental-block floodgates in Ford's mind. From experience, sometimes you really aren't faced with how truly lonely you are until you are provided with some respite from it.
Again, I would like to say, it's not that I think he wasn't lonely before. He definitely was, and it's certainly part of why Bill was able to target him. But would he have written it out like that at that point in time? In the journal no less?
I dont really think so. I think he was doing everything in his power not to think or feel it.
And writing it down isn't really what I'd call conducive to that.
A Gentler Soul [Stanford Pines X Reader] Spicy Blurb
Tags: NSFW, Suggestive, Minors DO NOT Interact
Just a poetic way of saying I want him lol
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Stanford Pines used to be a gentler soul. He could spend hours reading about cryptids and mycelium. He could name every moth in Gravity Falls in their Latin and numerous nicknames. On Wednesdays, he'd step out of his home and eagerly watch the sky turn dark- because that's when the local pixies came out to play and dance in a glittering display of light.
Now, he was a sharpened knife. All cuts and bruises, running through the dimensions without taking a second to admire oddities around him. He was a man on the run, he had no time to marvel at how suns imploded and stars seemed to wink at him, in this vast, nonsensical hellscape called the Nightmare Realm.
He can't stop, he can't catch his breath, lest he stops breathing altogether.
You followed him wherever he ran.
It was survival, you told yourself.
It was science, sticking together was something humans did, Ford told you.
The silences in between the running and fighting told you otherwise.
When it grew dark and quit, in wherever ruins he deemed safe enough, that's when the air shifted.
Stanford Pines moved as if he was always running out of time.
But here, under the shade of a forgotten building, away from prying eyes and bounty hunters, he took his time. He looked at you like you were a new book he'd yet to read. His attention was like fire, burning through the layers of your clothes and the fragile. And like a candle, you melted for the flame of his gaze.
Six fingered hands dragged languidly over the flesh of your ribs, dipping low and stopping just at your abdomen. His knee slowly nudges your inner thigh, spreading your leg outward for access.
He'd worship the scars littering your chest and neck with his tongue, warm and wet as it devoured the salt of your skin.
But it would be kissing you that would truly undo him.
Feeling your soft lips was a different kind of rapture, your moans were poetry he intended to burn into his mind forever. He could worship you this way for several lifetimes, if he could.
At every moan, he'd whisper praises and reassurances- safety, in this desolate world made to consume humans like you. Ford wouldn't let that happen to you, not when he could taste you instead, damn the cruel world outside this room. He had you to himself, at least in this one, small eternity.
If you slipped a hand under his greying locks and whispered any sort of praise to him, he'd cave in and give you anything you want.
Trailing your fingers over the lines of his tattoos would earn you more of that pleasure. Like toppling a candle and letting the flames grow, he'll worship you and burn down your altar, until all that was left was him. He'd growl and grow rougher in his ministrations. Drag those nails from his wrist, to his biceps, then to his chest, and see what happens when a composed man cracks. Every desperate cry would be your only confession of his feelings, in a place unfit for sentimentality.
Come morning, he's reminded of how fragile you are. You'd be covered in circular bruises- counting six in each set.
His eyes would soften at the bashful look in your eye, hiding his marking underneath your clothes as you two prepare to venture out again. Time rests for no one, here. He needed to find a way home and bring you with him.
So he pulls up his mask, covers his silvery hair under a cowl. He wraps a warm hand over yours and makes sure you're never separated for too long.
Stanford Pines used to be a gentler soul, and he longed for the day he could be one again, with you.
Ford with a partner who loves country music… while he does not
You’d serenade him with different country songs, and he’d groan and act all annoyed. But really he can’t keep from smiling when you sidle up close and sing some 70s/80s country love song against his neck
make a little doodle page of yourself or a character sheet ((if something hasn’t been requested yet))
WORKING ON THIS BY THE WAY. CURRENTLY FORCING MY VESSEL TO MAKE AS MUCH ART OF ME AS THEY CAN TO FULFILL THE ONE AND ONLY ACTUAL FUCKING REQUEST GIVEN BY THE 100 PEOPLE HERE
some fords i drew recently
CURSE THE WORLD,
CURSE THIS TOWN,
CURSE THE FATE THAT BROUGHT ME HERE!
w h a t h a v e I d o n e ?
He's so silly 💔💔
glad you’re feeling better!
would you be comfortable sharing a sneak peek of the next chapter 👀
if not I totally understand please prioritize your well being!
Listen, I don't have a chapter sneak peak for you BUT..... because I'm making you all wait so long for this next chapter and I feel bad, I'm gonna give you a small snack.
This is an unpublished thingy that I posted on a little discord server that I'm in and people liked it there so I figured you might enjoy it here. It is just a very short warm-up drabble that I did ages ago and never used again. It's a bit messy and stuff, but whatever. It's set during MtB but it isn't really anything to do with the series. Just a little snippet of life within it:
I Got It Bad (and that ain't good) Rating: NSFW (only slightly) Type: Drabble Tags: Kissing, implied sexual stuff. Very, very tiny inference to muses but meant in no certain way. No pronouns/body described. Word count: 1233
When he's feeling contemplative, Ford likes to play the piano.
He is, like so many other things he turns his attention to, wonderful at it.
Ford likes jazz. He pretends he's a classical purist but you've found the record sleeves on the shelves near his desk, you’ve done a little snooping, and you know they rarely correspond to the vinyl inside. They're just for show. He plays it mainly in the evenings when he's treating himself to a glass of scotch; he'll listen to a particular artist (this week it's been an awful lot of Duke Ellington) and then recreate it on his own instrument.
He'll start small. Just a slow, leisurely tinkling of the ivories as he finds his rhythm, and then he'll settle into his groove and flex yet another of his many skills as you listen from another room while you tidy up.
If you're especially lucky, he'll ask you to join him and give him feedback on it.
He doesn't care about the feedback, of course, because he knows he's good and so does everyone else, and you're sure he's just using it as an opportunity to show off but you never mind.
He has, in typical Ford fashion, always refuted your accusation: “I assure you, I certainly am not,” he'd said one evening with a knowing smile, as you'd watched from your seat beside him. “I merely know that you like jazz and I play because you listen,” and you'd felt such an intensely affectionate warmth bloom in your chest that you'd dropped the point immediately.
(And when he had added on a quiet: “Plus, I like the way you look at me when I do it,” and you'd made him hit a bum note when you’d leant up to press a kiss to the corner of his mouth, then, well, who can blame you?)
Your favourite thing to do, beyond simply enjoying the melodies, is to watch his hands and fingers as he works.
He'd been a little apprehensive at first, once he had noticed, but you had been quick to reassure him that your interest was appreciative, if perhaps salacious, and not even close to judgemental.
“Would you be uncomfortable if I took a video?” You ask one dark winter's evening, leaning against the piano’s top while you observe him. “Just for myself, I mean.”
“Whatever for?” Ford responds without missing a beat of his metronome.
He's going away soon. He and Stan set sail in two days time and it’s a long trip this time, which means for four months, four long, agonising months, you’ll be without him. It’s almost too much to bear and your heart feels like lead at the thought.
“Because I’m going to miss you and I’d like to have something to remind me of you when I feel like shit,” you say.
The corner of Ford’s mouth curls upward a fraction and he spares you a thinly veiled, heated glance, his cheeks turning pink. “I thought our plan was to give you plenty of reminders the night before….?”
Your stomach flutters.
“I’d like more than bruises, if you wouldn’t mind,” you say, biting down on a smile.
Ford laughs under his breath and after a moment, says: “And it’s just for you? The video?”
“Of course,” you reassure him. “I don’t have to, I just…. Your hands are my favourite part of you and I think about them, often.”
Too often, some might say.
Ford laughs again, a little louder this time. “Not my dashing good looks?” he teases. “Or my dazzling personality? You wound me, my dear.”
You grin. “All of the above,” you say with a shrug. “But especially your hands.”
“Is that so?” Ford says, taking one hand from the keys to pat the empty space beside him. “And what, pray tell, do you think about them?”
You go where he asks, taking up a seat at his side obediently. “Lots of things.”
“Such as….?”
He’s fishing for compliments, you both know it, but does sound genuinely curious, too.
“I think they’re the most beautiful hands I’ve ever seen,” you say, giving him exactly what he wants. “And I think about how they fit in mine. I think about how they feel, how your thumb rubs over my knuckles when we hold hands and how your little finger does the same on the sides, you know, just because you can do that….”
“Anything else?” Ford asks, voice warm.
You smile, eyes transfixed on the way his fingers tick across the ivory. “And…. I like to think about how you hold my thighs when you have your head between them. The way you hold onto my hips. How your fingers taste when you put them in my mouth.”
Ford makes a soft sound, somewhere between a contented sigh and an aroused groan, and his hands falter momentarily before he restarts his playing.
“Is that so?” he says, hoarse.
“Mm,” you hum absentmindedly. Your head is full of those same thoughts right now, your mind’s eye blurred with the memories of Ford’s fingers climbing underneath your jeans and inching past your underwear. Of touching you so intimately that you have to press your thighs together slightly to sate the longing.
Ford catches it.
“You’re thinking about it right now,” he mutters, and his tone holds no question.
He’s stopped playing. His hands are frozen over the keys.
“Aren’t you?” you answer, eyes still on them.
Ford exhales slowly through his nose, shaky, restrained. “I’m always thinking of you,” he says simply.
You tear your eyes away to look up at him, only to find that his gaze is already on you.
Ford’s eyes are molten, half-lidded and hot, and they flick down to your mouth and back up to your own.
“You’re terrible,” he says, in such a way that it’s obvious he means it in the most complimentary context possible. “A terrible, terrible influence on an old man like me.”
A smirk creeps onto your face. It’s always satisfying to see the effect you have on him. “I can leave, if you’d like me to. I have plenty to do and I-!”
Ford pushes the stool back with one leg, your combined weights little more than a minor inconvenience to him, and he hauls you into his lap before you can even finish the thought.
You laugh, loud and bright, and fling your arms around his neck to hold on tightly to him and avoid sending you both to the floor in a heap. “Or not,” you concede.
“Never,” agrees Ford, and then he’s kissing you.
It’s slow and tender and white hot as always.
You can feel his arousal press between your legs and it’s enough to make you smile against his mouth.
“What a dirty old man you’ve become,” you say dramatically, nudging your nose against his.
“I'm only what my muse makes of me,” Ford says raggedly. “And you are an awfully seductive force, you know….”
“So I've been told,” you smile, one hand wandering below to palm him gently through his slacks.
Ford groans, low and deep, and tilts his head back. “I'll make a deal with you,” he says quietly. “I swore off them a long time ago but just for you, just this once: if you keep doing that, I'll let you take footage of any fucking thing you like….”
You grin.
“Deal.”
Damn they got me here
Voting Ford because I'm loyal but that sexy, scrawny, sickly scientist on the left makes me wanna MMSBJDSJ
CONGRATS STANLEY!!!
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