Ok But Like What If The Grass Ghost Was The Grass Ghost Of The Opera

well hey, since hardly anyone's looking at this corner of the website anyway I might as well take the opportunity to vent (it's annoying to do it on twitter with the character cap)

Man, social media is hard.

I see so many people posting regular content consistently for years and years without even seemingly breaking a sweat, while it's always been so difficult for me... Calculating engagement, deciding the best times to post, or, hell, even just sharing what they think/feel/made/fucking ate that day just seems, like, so easy and second nature for pretty much everyone around me. It's genuinely incredible to me that somebody can share what they've learned about idk shitty impractical tanks made in WW1 on this website and make it such an interesting read that hundreds of people engage with it!

But I've tried keeping social media accounts for art and stuff so many times now, on here, on Instagram, on Artstation, on Xitter, and eventually it just- kinda- fades away, it just feels so exhausting to keep track of all the things necessary to Chase the Algorhythm™ if you wanna have any relevancy. Is it a charisma thing??? Where do I grind to get a stat boost on my Cha???

I'd love to say it doesn't matter to me, since I've been drawing shit for myself for years now, but unfortunately artists do need social media presence if they wanna get work. Not to mention, well, I wanna reach people with the stuff I do! I want people to react to what I made, to say what they liked about it, or how it made them feel, and then when I post something I worked on for hours only to get, like, almost zero visibility? idk, man, it just kinda hurts. It's probably selfish and immature for me to say it, I know that it takes time and effort to build an audience and all that, but damn I get happy when people show me that something I've made has affected them positively. I like the connection, I like the conversations, I like meeting people who enjoy the same nerdy trash that I do!

(I was very fortunate to have an art post of mine reach a lot of notes here years ago, which was amazing, but it's such a rare thing)

God, and, like, there's all these weird unspoken rules about interacting on social media too.

The other day a friend of mine came up to our friend group and was like "oh my god this girl liked my stories on instagram it means something does she like me" and I was SO confused and then they were like "well, when somebody not on your friends list likes your stories, it means they're interested in you"

Then some time later another friend was telling me that somebody stopped liking her posts and unfriended her and how that is a horrible offense and my fucking brain hurt, like- okay I get the unfriend part kinda but there could be a hundred reasons for it??? it's not like you have a deep personal connection to all 300 friends you have on your account???

Then I see so many people out there simply sharing something they think or did only to have some rando twist what they said and come at them like they're the shittiest person on the planet that deserves everything bad in life actually (except the ones that are willingly spouting/promoting hateful shit to begin with. Those can rot in hell and I shall not mourn their demise)

Like??? It might be the Power of Autism™ in me but it always feels like I'm one step away from either making a fool of myself or offending twenty different people or both. It's both the fear of having hundreds of thousands of eyes on me and the fear of having none at all. And that makes it really difficult to share anything on the internet for me. I already have to deal with my entire existence as a trans woman making some cunts around the world mad, it sucks that I have to risk it in places where I just wanna post dumb drawings and talk about dumb things that make me happy with others.

I dunno. Word vomit I guess. Social media is hard. Interacting with humans is hard. Sharing stuff is hard. I prefer Pokémon

“She’s here.” said the boy with the tail. And then the artist threw all Inktober rules out the window for one final time.

Here’s the final hero-girl-horror-waifu for day 30! Dunno about you but I’d be okay with someone like Hagakure haunting my house.

This last horror drawing was based on the famous poster for Poltergeist. But beware, October is not over just yet...

I support more Hilda Berg content.

Inktober day 10: why didn’t she have a Scorpio transformation edition

Hi! I saw your bnha horror girls art and I thought it was the coolest crossover piece. Would it be cool if I cosplayed your slasher momo design? I'll credit you when I post pictures. Thanks a ton and love your art!!

Oh my, that would be really amazing!!! Of course, I'm really looking forward to seeing it! I honestly feel kinda honored, haha.

And yeah, as long as you give me a shout-out, I'm super ok with it. Thank you so much! ❤️

Wanted to draw my Pokémon Emerald team before I go face the Elite Four. I love these dorks.

>inb4 Last Train Home

Last night I had a dream about an alien woman that looked kinda like this, so I've made some doodles

Not a single day I can rest in this fucking house

I found this in my living room today, trying to provoke my cat. It’s very angry and won’t let go of my finger.

What do I do with it?

sorry for potato quality ._.

Hi I'm here to shamelessly plug the Pokémon fic I've been writing to feed my hyperfixation with this cover art I drew for it

It's a sequel fic to the Jirachi movie, where a Flygon is sent thousands of years into the future when Jirachi wakes up again. It's 3 chapters in so far, with more coming soon~

I always struggled with narrative writing, so this is a project to practice that. Between that and English not being my native language I can't guarantee it's any good but I'm putting a lot of effort into it, I'd appreciate it if anyone gave it a shot :3

(if the link doesn't work, I'm also catwalkvivi on ao3 so you should be able to find me there)

Cheers!! ❤🌟

More tarot cards!! These are super fun to do~