john price is big, like have you seen the man? he's tall, beefy, and covered in powerful muscles built from years in the military, strong arms and thick thighs. huge overall. and small you, little thing, doesn't even matter if you are tall or short, skinny or chubby, because anything compared to him is small, you don't stand a chance against him and his strength.
he doesn't realise at first, but there's certain things that make him feel strong and powerfull compared to you and like he needs to protect you: standing behind you in the kitchen to grab something you were trying to get from the top shelf, how big his hand is compared to yours or how small you look in his shirts.
and oh those shirts are the worst ones, they completely dwarf you and just show his sheer size. let's say that was the full awakening for his size kink and the last straw for him, after that he just manhandled you, threw you over his shoulder and carried you to the bedroom.
once he had you in bed he just lifted that shirt to expose the lace panties you were wearing underneath, pulled those to the side, while laying one of his strong arms next to your head, supporting himself and fully engulfing your small frame under his, and dipped his fingers into your already wet middle.
and since he you were already wet and ready to take him, he just pushed himself into you, feeling your tight walls trying to fit his cock while also seeing it in your lower stomach once he was balls deep.
god does he love to rearrange your fucking insides.
Old Man!Price has a thing for pretty little things.
He'd be the type of soldier to randomly pick up a dandelion or random weed flowers, inspecting it closely before crushing it in his calloused palm as if he was not admiring it a moment ago.
And you're no exception.
Pretty and perfect. An invitation for corruption as if you're begging to be ruined, shown no mercy and totally under his control. You're perfect for it, almost too perfect as if reality is playing a cruel trick on him by putting you into his arms. It was too easy, very easy but John doesnât complain. He knows better than to fuck up a good thing by overthinking.Â
John holds your nose closed, stopping you from breathing for a moment. He tsks you at your feeble attempt to take his whole length and currently you are paying the price. Eyes glaciated with struggle, slobbering down his length, your drool dripping onto your tits- a perfect display of submission, compliance.Â
âI told you you couldnât take me all the way but you just had to argue with me, didnât you?â John says, his voice dark and glazed with authority.Â
You let out a pathetic, muffled whimper, your gaze filled with apology and regret. He lets go of your nose allowing you to get a breath of air as you pull away from his cock breathing heavily and babbling a series of âIâm sorryâsâ.Â
John sighs as tears roll down your flushed cheeks.
âIâll give you one more chance, dollface. Open wide.âÂ
You part your lips hesitantly, scared of disappointing him. John pushes his leaking cock past your lips, your tongue instinctively darting out to lick the tip, gathering his pre-cum as you savour the taste of his salty goodness. A soft moan of satisfaction leaves your mouth as you try your best to take him fully.Â
John shudders, groaning, his eyes screwed shut. Damn it, he didnât want you to do that, he was gonna end up cumming and at his age, there was no way he could be ready for another around straight after.Â
He grips the armrest trying to think of anything else other than his pretty babe sucking his cock so bloody well.Â
Ponies⌠Beer⌠Shit- No, beer makes me horny⌠the SAS⌠military life⌠my birdie sending me a boudoir album on our first anniversary when I was away- Lake⌠Lake house⌠Holiday⌠Birdie in lingerie⌠pretty boobs, soft, warm⌠Wait, no- Ah, fuckâŚ
He gives up as he feels the impending coil about to snap. Grabbing the back of your head, he shoves his whole length in not caring about your comfort. Your nose nuzzles against his dark bush, musky scent engulfing you. John cums, cums so hard that it makes you gag and spill out of your mouth.Â
You pull away panting, swallowing what remains of him. Looking up at him, you raise an eyebrow at the sudden loss of Johnâs control. He laid back, spent and heaving with his arm covering his eyes.Â
âLet's go to a lake house, Birdie.â
(john price x reader who basically manifests him into her life)
It all started with a pie.
A blackberry pie, to be exact. One that youâd spent a good part of the morning perfecting- balancing the sweetness and tartness with the precision of a master alchemist concocting a love potion. You were almost convinced that this particular pie might finally be the answer to your motherâs prayers: an offering so mouthwatering that it would distract her from once again insisting you marry that insufferably dull millerâs son, Thomas.
You had just placed it on the windowsill to cool, the aroma curling through the cottage like a sirenâs song, when your mother barged in, cheeks flushed with determination. âIâve invited Thomas for supper.â She announced, as if she was a witch summoning a dark spirit.
You almost dropped the teapot. âMother, no.â
âMother, yes. Darling, youâre not getting any younger.â She clasped her hands like a pious martyr, staring heavenward as if appealing for divine assistance. âWhy, you are practically ancient now. Do you know how many children I had at your age? Three! And you- still unmarried. People are talking.â
You opened your mouth to protest, but thatâs when inspiration struck. Perhaps it was the sweetness of the pie that made your thoughts reckless, or perhaps the desperation of avoiding Thomasâs endless ramblings about grain prices, and so you straightened your spine. â⌠But I already have a suitor.â
Your mother paused, mouth pursed like sheâd bitten into a particularly sour lemon. âYou what?â
âYes.â You adjusted your apron with all the gravitas of a queen revealing her long-lost heir, except you were revealing a beloved. âHeâs a soldier. Off fighting bravely in the war. Captain⌠John Price.â You plucked the name from thin air, thinking it sounded stalwart, military-ish and utterly believable.
Your motherâs eyes narrowed. âAnd why havenât I heard of this⌠Captain before?â
âWell, we didnât want to make a fuss. You know how people talk.â
Her suspicion melted, replaced with gleaming hope. âA soldier, you say? A captain?â
âYes,â you continued, your voice growing bolder. Let ir never be said that you did not inherit some of your fatherâs love for theatrics. âHe writes to me. Beautiful letters, whenever he has the chance to, and I always reply. Iâll⌠Iâll show you one!â
Thatâs how you found yourself hunched over your rickety desk that night, ink staining your fingers, spinning an epic tale of love and longing so good you justknew Shakespeare was probably rolling in his grave
Dear Captain John Price,
My heart is but a lonely swallow without you. The days stretch long and tiresome in your absence, but I hold steadfast, knowing that one day you will return to me- my brave, rugged soldier.
Yours, faithfully.
You took great care in writing the letter, wanting it to look as if it had been penned by a devoted girl waiting patiently for her beloved captain. Before folding it, you pressed a dried flower between the pages and lightly scented the paper with a dab of your favorite perfume, the fragrance soft and sweet, leaving no doubt that the writer was a gentle, affectionate soul and not an absolutely insane woman tricking her parents. You even tied it with a delicate ribbon, imagining how any soldier would feel cherished to receive such a letter.
To your utter (non)surprise, it worked. Your mother clutched the letter to her chest with a tearful sigh, whispering something about true love. And from that moment on, Captain John Price became your imaginary lover, a sturdy bulwark against matchmaking attempts.
And so, the years passed, and John Price became a part of your life. You wrote letters to him whenever the pressure to marry reached critical mass, each one a little more elaborate than the last. You even took to carrying one of his supposed letters (which you also wrote yourself) in your apron pocket, just in case anyone questioned your devotion.
You never expected, however, for the Captain himself to show up at your doorstep.
It was a crisp autumn evening when the knock came. You barely registered it, too busy trying to salvage the stew that was steadfastly refusing to thicken. When the knock came again, louder and more insistent, you huffed and flung open the door, still clutching your wooden spoon like a weapon and a mighty glare on your face.
There stood a man. A mountain of a man, truthfully. Tall, broad-shouldered, with a commanding presence that seemed to make the very air hold its breath. His face was framed by a well-groomed beard, his eyes a piercing blue beneath a well-worn cap. And clutched in his large hand was a bundle of letters- scarily familiar letters, actually.
His mouth curved into a slow, wolfish grin. âWell, love. Youâve got some explaininâ to do.â
You froze, spoon hovering mid-air. âYou- how- who are you?â
He chuckled, the sound more than a little smug. âNameâs Captain John Price. You might recognize me from your rather⌠heartfelt correspondence.â He held up one of the letters, the familiar scrawl of your handwriting a stark betrayal.
Your stomach dropped. ââŚCoincidence.â
âOh, I donât think so,â he drawled, stepping inside as if he owned the place. âImagine my surprise when your letters kept landing in my hands. At first, I thought it was just some lonely girl scribbling fantasies. But the boys kept handinâ them to me- said they lifted spirits, readinâ how you were waitinâ for me.â
You spluttered, backing up as he prowled forward. âBut- how did they-â
He shrugged, almost casual. âYou put my name and rank on the letters. Found their way to me eventually. Youâve been rather⌠devoted, havenât you?â
You sputtered. âDevoted? I was just- avoiding marriage!â
His eyes darkened, jaw tightening. âDidnât stop me from thinking about it. About you. When I read how you longed for me- waited so faithfully- made a man think. Wouldâve kept any other bastard from sniffinâ around, Iâd hope.â
Your tongue felt heavy in your mouth. âI didnât think you were real!â
He leaned closer, the scent of tobacco and gunpowder curling around you like a trap. âOh, Iâm real, love. And now Iâm here. Reckon you owe me a bit of hospitality after all those love letters, no?â
Your mouth opened and closed like a landed fish.
âDidnât matter if you didnât mean it, you still wrote it. Made me think of cominâ home to you, of claiminâ whatâs mine.â His fingers brushed your jaw, thumb tracing your cheek with surprising tenderness. âYou made yourself mine. And now, Iâve come to collect.â
Before you can muster a protest, he leans down, capturing the corner of your lips in a kiss, your face frozen solid in shock. When he finally pulls back, his thumb brushes your swollen lip.
âThat clear enough for you, wife?â
BARRY SLOANE as Joe 'Bear' Graves in SIX (2017â2018) Episodes 2.01/2.08
John Price and a younger reader, but one who didnât mind that he couldnât always give her what she wanted. One who found it endearing when he stressed over how he wasnât performing, and was content with pleasing herself most days.
That didn't mean that he didnât know what he was doing, or that he was anything less than satisfactory in general. In fact, it made sense â he ruined you so badly after sessions where he really got at it, essentially spearing you in two and leaving you a babbling, aching mess, that you often couldnât stand for days afterwards, let alone have another round.
So instead of going at it like feral creatures every other minute, which was how Price assumed his subordinates did by the way they gazed at you with hungry, lust-filled eyes, youâd have sparing nights of pleasure, but youâd always make them count.
And that was just how the two of you liked it.
Had imagine giving the old man and his abilities some love without immediately resorting to his teammates <33 (not that im complaining id take any of them)
Thinking about reader who secretly pined for the rugged, bearded older man who frequented the gym.
You got more motivated to work outâjust for the chance to see him. Every time you went, you made sure to claim the treadmill right in front of him, your heart pounding in sync with his rhythmic breaths.
The sound of his panting as he ran sent a thrill down your spine, igniting a delicious fantasy. You imagined him chasing after you, his gaze locked onto your form. Heat simmered in your core at the thought of glancing back, only to find him utterly focused. The thought got your feet moving quick.
Unbeknownst to you, he had a similar thought in mind as he started sprinting on the treadmill behind you.
Barry Sloane as Captain Price Beta version Joe âBearâ Graves | SIX
price x f!reader | 10k | AO3
cw: dubcon, explicit sexual content, praise kink, daddy kink (mentioned), breeding kink, john price wife-hunting/wife at first sight, perfectionist/workaholic/lonely reader, stalking, manipulation
John spots the ad as he punches a pin through his card.Â
Itâs impossible to miss.
Bright red hearts, pink-and-white checkered borders on glossy paper someone paid extra to print. A heart-shaped tack centered perfectly along the top edge. Big looping lettersâMEET YOUR MATCH SPEED DATING.
It looks absurd next to his card. A dull rectangle of plain cardstock, his name printed in clean, unembellished letters, âJohn Price - Handymanâ, and his number below. No bright colors, no flourishes. Simple like the work. Honest. Keeps his hands occupied between deployments.
The disgust arrives on a delay, a spark traveling along powder. A twist in his gut, a curl of his lip. His eyes rolling hard in his skull. Itâs an affrontânot just to him, but to the very idea of how things are supposed to go.
He yanks a trolley free, muttering under his breath.
Who in their right mind would waste time like that? Spinning around, talking to strangers, volleying shallow questions, forcing laughter. Acting like most people donât make up their minds in the first thirty seconds about whether or not they want someone in their bed.
The whole affair reeks.
He shoulder-checks another man in power tools, too distracted by the voices of his sergeants drifting uninvited through his head, summoned by all his grousing.
Stubborn, cantankerous Price. Twice-divorced, stuck in a year-long dry spell because heâs got a habit of scaring off any decent woman who strays into his orbit. The mean old bastard who always moans about the good olâ daysâwhen men met women face-to-face, not through some app where you swiped left or right like you were picking out a meal deal.
When he could pick them up right off the street, like the first Mrs. Price. Or the supermarket, like her successor.
The memories leave a bittersweet taste. An ache in his groin. Itâs been a minute since he took a girl home. Since he tried.
Through the shelves, the poster shines like a fucking beacon.
He breathes sharply through his nose, shakes it off, and shoves deeper into the store.
He never shouldâve looked at the bloody thing.
Four fingersâ worth of amber sloshing around in his belly, he swallows the burn of embarrassment with another glass. Lets it dull his better judgment. The tips of his ears red hot as he punches his bank card into the online checkout, grumbling some half-formed excuse to himself.Â
The confirmation email arrives in seconds. He ignores it.
He spends the week installing cabinetry, letting the scream of a circular saw drown out his thoughts. Shovels dirt over it when he lays a garden path for a neighbor one afternoon, determined to bury it one stone at a time. Tamping it down along with the dirt, out of sight, out of mind.
But then the reminder lands in his inbox, bright and cheery. Evidence of his lapse in judgment. His mood sours, dragging him into the muck like a boot caught in deep, clinging mud. He knows he ought to ignore it again, chalk it up to a stupid mistake, butâ
An itch flares on the back of his ring finger. He scratches it raw, but thereâs no relief.
On the night of, he drives white-knuckled to the next town over, pulling into the car park twenty minutes early. He leans against his door, cigar in hand, smoke curling into the cold air as others arrive.
Most of them come in groups, chattering and laughing, familiar. He jumps from one face to the next, cataloging. His finger rests on an invisible trigger, caught between decisionsâgo in and see what the fuss is about, or make a quick retreat, head home, and catch some pretty faceâs stream instead.
Then, a small cluster of girls passes by, giggling behind manicured hands, casting sidelong glances that scream daddy issues. He exhales a ribbon of smoke, watching over the glowing cherry of his cigar.
Whether or not he, by some miracle, finds a match tonight, thereâs always the potential for a consolation prize.
As soon as he slaps a name tag onto his chest and scans the crowd, itâs obviousâheâs one of the older men present. Hell, scratch that, he might be the oldest by a fair stretch.
The younger bucks donât spare him a second glance, too busy puffing out their chests, checking the competition among themselves. The women, though, theyâre more forgiving. A few give him passing looks, flickers of intrigue as they clock him standing off to the side, arms crossed, watching.
John knows what he looks like. North of forty, gray threading through his temples, a soft layer of fat settling over the muscle beneath. Dressed sensibly, nothing flashy. Not like the men peacocking around in too-tight shirts, drowning themselves in cologne, preening. Heâs here, and thatâs about the extent of his effort.
And then the first round begins. He sits across from the first girl, and the second her eyes widenânot in the way heâd likeâhe knows exactly what kind of night this is going to be.
It proceeds as expected.
The fascination with his years, the curiosity. Whatâs a man like you doing at something like this? The inevitable prying. Married before? Twice? Oh, well, then. Or worse, the giddy birds, buzzing in their seats with smiles that say, yes, he is the answer to some life-long wound, a stand-in for the attention they never got from their fathers.Â
Then there are the unbearably shy ones, pulling teeth just to get a full sentence out before the round is called. Good girls. Decent girls. Girls who stare at him as if heâs about to vault the table and sink his teeth into their throats.
Which is absurd.
Heâs a war dog. He prefers a bit of fight. Skin in the game. Make it worth his while, tucker him out.
By the end of it, his card is full, but heâs unimpressed.
His knees and back ache from all the repetitious standing and sitting, moving from seat to seat like some wind-up toy. His jaw is sore from clenching, his temples pulsing from two hours of forced patience. Hands itching for a smoke. Itâs nothing like sitting and waiting for a clean shot. That always results in at least a job well done. A mission accomplished. This? A lousy scorecard and a couple of numbers he wonât call from girls who donât have a clue what theyâre looking for?
Heâs out of his fucking mind for even bothering.
Itâs demeaning.
The organizer flicks on the mic, sending a screech of feedback through the speakers, and he rips the name tag from his chest, teeth grinding. He didnât listen the first timeâonly a fucking moron would need the rules explained twice. Heâs already angling toward the door, ready to make his exit, when he sees you.
The evening turns on its head.
The last hour wiped clean with a look.
Bright red hearts dangle from your ears. A matching necklace rests at the hollow of your throat. A pink-and-white checkered clipboard sits on your hip, a matching pen twirling absently in your fingers. Chipped crimson varnish on your thumb, like youâve been peeling it off. Chewing, maybe.Â
Glittery boots lend you height. Shoulders squared, posture straight. Doing your best to exude confidence.
Candyfloss sweet, with a pinch of salt.
You prattle on. Platitudes, mostly. How engaged everyone looked in their conversations, a playful quip about how some already seem like goddamn lovebirds. Your voice lilts with charm, a smidge warbly. You mustâve given this speech a hundred times before. Then comes the boasting.
Your agencyâs success rate. The numbers, the percentages. How many second and third dates attendees report back. How youâve helped introduce hundreds of couples. Thereâs pride in it. Your eyes brighten. But itâs a veneer. Thin as lace.
He sees it. The beads of sweat gathering at your hairline, the faint sheen behind your ear, the subtle tremor in your voice when you get too caught up in your own enthusiasm. A broken-off giggle. The occasional tap of your fingers against the edge of that clipboard, a tic, a tell. Youâve got the confidence, but itâs over-rehearsed. As much of an accessory as the ornament wrapped around your neck.
And he canât help but wonder.
What would you do if someone called your bluff? If he found you after? Stepped in close, trapped you against one of those god awful stiff-backed chairs, close enough that you felt the weight of him hovering? What would you do if he gave you his honest opinion about your âworkâ, face-to-face?
His mind spins on it for half a second before you say something that derails him completely.
Babies.
It lands like a stone dropped in a pond. Ripples outward in nervous laughter, uncertain shuffling. The younger attendees shift on their feet, casting shy, uncertain glances at each other. You fumble through it, quick and awkward, as if youâve only realized the present demographics arenât quite ready for the stork.
He hopes itâs an exaggeration. An offhand comment, a bone tossed out for the older guests in the room.
(Him, because who else fits the bill?)
His blood runs hot at that.
Something stirs in his gut, rising insistent and uncoiling in his chest. A want he thought heâd discounted out years ago, snuffed like a match between his fingers. Delayed by his climb through the ranks and waylaid by fizzling romance.
Children.Â
Can one ever really bury an instinct like that deep enough?
His own father soured him on the notionâspiteful, unforgiving, malignant tumor of a man. Impossible standards, an intolerance to match. A rage John inherited, honed, funneled into the one bloody release he found in service. An ugliness that made him swear off continuing the line.Â
Still, something funny holds him back. That itch.
Heâs canceled every vasectomy heâs ever scheduled in the last decade. Reversible or not, itâs intoxicating to know what heâs capable of.
With you wandering into the crosshairs, it clicks into place. He understands.
He swallows, jaw clenching, and forces himself to look at your face instead of the hollow of your throat, where that ridiculous necklace rests. Forces himself to focus on what youâre saying instead of the shape of your mouth as you say it.
A-ffirmed. Heâs out of his fucking mind for coming here.
He tells himself he wonât hunt you down afterward.
No. Youâre insulated. Shielded by a flock of hens who swarm the second you return the microphone back to its stand, all clucking approval, dishing out compliments, asking their inane questions about your services. You nod, smile, say your thanks, gracious and warm, and itâs exactly the excuse he needs to leave.
He should leave.
Instead, he declines to give your colleague his scorecard, stuffing the useless sheet into his pocket without so much as a second look-over. He chews the inside of his cheek, locked on you. Takes what he tells himself will be his last look. Prints you on the inside of his eyelids.
Then he sees your hand.
A short stack of business cards, matching the damned poster that started this whole ridiculous mess. He moves before he can think better of it.
Crosses the hall in a handful of long strides. The younger women scatter in his wake, parted by his low, muttered pardon meâs.
And you, youâ
Eyes wide, lips parting around a breath, half a sentence, âHere, sir,â before he plucks a card from your fingers.
Then heâs gone.
Straight out the door. Across the car park. Sliding into the driverâs seat, his pulse thundering in his ears, his hand already reaching for the glove compartment. Lighter. Cigarette. Routine to steady himself. Busy his hands so he doesnât barge right back inside and drag you out behind him. Fire to distract the caveman clawing at his brain.
He doesnât look at your card right away, not until the first drag burns through his lungs.
Itâs just as garish as the poster. Wine-red lettering. Your name. The dating agency you work for. Your number.
And if that isnât convenient.Â
Thatâs half the battle won.
He should call. Go through the proper channels, hire you for your services like any decent man would. But thereâd be no way to lie about what heâs really looking for and what he really wants.
He canât be too direct, canât risk scaring you off, but he also canât leave it up to chance. Experienceâand two spousal paymentsâhave taught him better than that.
He wonât make the same mistake a third time.
John does his research.
Your online presence is threadbare, limited to a short bio on the agency website and a sparsely populated profile on a corporate network. Matchmaker, professional hostess. He scrolls, picks apart the scraps. Posts youâve written and shared, abbreviated comments you embellish with hearts.
Little as he has to study with, it adds up.
Youâre all work, no play. Polite, sweet, and a real go-getter, as a former colleague describes you. All butterflies and whiskers on kittens. Sugar-coated professionalism. Your accomplishments and certifications laid out like medals, ambitions clear. Ruthless, in your own way, but the kind with puppy teeth, growing into your bite, heâd bet.
He saw you struggle and the nerves you tried to hide. Maybe others bought it, but he didnât. If thatâs where you are after years on the job, he imagines what you were like in the beginning. Easily rattled, unsteady on your feet.
Still. Youâre trying. Look where you are now. Go-getter.
The effort and determination, however clumsy, fascinates. It keeps him searching for a glimpse beneath the polished exterior, but thereâs nothing. Not a single mention of friends, family, or, notably, a boyfriend.
It makes his teeth ache.
He needs more.
A hideous, modern building. The very opposite of youâcold, plain, and impersonal. Expensive, not without amenities. His favorite?
The floor-to-ceiling windows.
Blessedly, you are a creature of routine.
Home to work, and work to home. A seamless loop, unbroken save for brief, reasonable deviations. Trips to the shops, a walk through the park near your flat, a community gym. Even then, thereâs no idle wandering or wasted time.
Sometimes, when you duck into the market, you emerge with a bouquet of flowers, petals and leaves wrapped in crinkled brown paper, or a bottle of wine, its slender neck peeking out. Small indulgences you buy yourself.
Because thereâs no one else to do it for you.
Heâs all but confirmed it, watching you ferry yourself between the same points, alone every time. No one welcomes you home. No one goes home to you. Big, lofty place like yours and no one to share it with.
It doesnât sit right with him, on two fronts.
The firstâyou pride yourself on your expertise. The training, the certificates, the metrics. Itâs all laid out online, your badges of honor, but youâre missing the biggest one, arenât you? Lacking firsthand knowledge. Quite the albatross hanging around your neck.
The secondâitâs self-flagellation, needless and punishing. Pretty, smart thing like you, locking yourself away. A princess banishing herself to a tower. The persistent, cynical part of him wonders if itâs simple snobbery. That you think youâre too good for men like him.Â
Yet thatâs not quite it either, is it?Â
You shut yourself off from everyone.
Twice in one week, from his spot in the mouth of the alley outside your office, he hears you decline invitations for drinks from your colleagues. The same excuse, too much to do, and a pat to the stuffed tote slung over your shoulder.
You work hard, pour yourself into the gig, and when you manage to unwind, itâs always in isolation. A quiet dinner, a solo glass of wine, a book balanced on the arm of your couch. Those big yoga stretches in the morning and at bed time.
The thought solidifies into certainty: You need someone to step in. Someone who sees you.
Luckily for you, John does.
(You never pull those shades down all the way. A fancy place like yours? Itâd be a shame to keep them covered, lose the view.)
Satisfied heâs learned all he can from a distance, John decides to meet you properly, on familiar ground. A lonely, overworked girl deserves at least that much. He isnât cruel.
Buying another ticket to another fucking night of pointless dating doesnât taste so bad when he has you to look forward to.
This time, itâs in the back room of a restaurant. Smaller, intimate.
Perfect.
John glides through the song and dance. Sign in, take the name tag, acknowledge your coworker, let them believe heâs another hopeful looking for love.
He is, in a way. Different from the last time. He strides with purpose now, heat-seeking. He sidesteps the idle chatter and growing crowd.
Eyes on the prize, and there you are.
As primped and polished as the first night, dressed in soft colors that contrast the tension strung tight in your shoulders pulled up to your ears. Just as on edge, if not more.
That damn clipboard is back on your hip, clutched like a lifeline, and it takes less than a second for his mind to replace it. A warm weight settled against you. Small hands grasping at fabric. A dark-haired child perched, fingers curled in your blouse.
His throat tightens.
You really shouldnât have mentioned babies.
You move through the space in a current, pulled in every direction at once. Checking in with your coworker, refusing to delegate. Pointing guests toward the toilets, fielding messages on your phone, juggling it all with a thin smile.
Itâs admirable.
Nevertheless, hairline cracks form. The light dulls in your eyes, the stress shakes your hands. Youâre tired, and not the kind he wants to see on you.
Not the delicious, drowsy fatigue of a body thoroughly spent, melted into the mattress after heâs wrung you dry. Not the half-hearted whimper of a protest as you nuzzle into his chest, mumbling about your ruined makeup staining pillowcases and how itâs his fault. Not the slow, syrupy exhaustion of pleasure that makes you pliant and warm in his arms. The kind of fatigue that leaves you soft, content. His.
Nor the bone-deep weariness of a woman woken in the middle of the night, cradlingâ
He blinks, biting down on the thought, and suddenly, youâre within reach.
âOh, hi again,â you chirp, passing a scorecard into his hand. âYou came a couple of weeks ago, right?â
That ugly impulse rises within him again, the desire to drag you away outside and make your problems disappear. âI did.â
âThought so. Well, good luck,â you check his name tag with a smile. âJohn. Hope you find someone tonight.â
If only you knew.
âOne question, if you donât mind,â he says, barely keeping his face neutral. âEver find your own match at one of these?â
Your eyes widen with an almost comical look of confusion. âExcuse me?â
John doesnât lower his head but instead stares right down his nose. âNo ring on your finger,â he muses. âBoyfriend too scared to step up?â
âIâIâm notââ
âDonât tell me,â he chuckles under his breath, âMiss Matchmaker is single?â
John tucks his chin to his chest and watches your pulse jump under your necklace. âNow that,â he murmurs, tilting his head, âis interesting.â
You freeze like youâve been caught in a lie. Here you are, a professional playing cupid to the lovesick masses, and yet youâre fumbling. Single.
To your credit, you recover quickly, wetting your lips and pasting on a smile. âI donât see how my personal life is relevant.â
âOh, but it is,â he insists. âHandinâ out happy endings left and right, and you donât have your own? How am I sâposed to believe your expertise?â
A line creases your brows. âMy job isnât about me.â
âIsnât it? You sell love for a living, but you donât believe in it enough to keep it for yourself?â
âThatâs notâI do not sell loveâŚâ You stop yourself, sucking in a breath. âIâm focusing on my career.â
âRight. Too busy pairing up strangers to find someone of your own.â
You bristle, shifting your weight, trying to hold your ground.
He likes that. Likes knowing heâs getting to you, pressing into a tender spot. Chipping away at the outer, painted shell.
Before you muster a response, he breaks into a warm laugh to play up the angle. âOnly teasinâ.â More like testing, sussing out how much give there is until you crack open and spill. âWell,â he pockets his hands, âguess that means youâre up for grabs, huh?â He winks. âTalk to you later, sweetheart.â
He leaves you stuttering, clipboard clutched to your chest.
The night is a blur. He couldnât name a single woman he spoke to. Unlike last time, his sheet is empty. No scores. If any woman sees it as a loss, he wouldnât know. Wouldnât care.
John steps out for air until more bodies trickle out, and then returns inside. He skirts the edges, poking around the tables at the far end where youâre collecting placards, setting the scene.
In his periphery, he sees the moment you realize youâre on a collision course.
âLose something?â
Fuck, your voice. Your normal voice, not the chirpy affect you slap on for work. Even if thereâs a new wariness to it.
âThink I managed to misplace my card.â
Your eyes widen, darting over the tables you cleared. A good and helpful girl, ignoring that little voice in your head.
âOh no, Iâll help you look. Do you remember what table you ended on?â
He grins. âThatâs kind of you, darl.â
He peeks as you check beneath tables, bending and huffing in frustration when you come up empty-handed. The apologetic smile when you finally admit defeat.
âI guess itâs long gone,â you say reluctantly.
John lays it on thick. Shakes his head with exaggerated disappointment, crumpling the sheet hidden in his jacket into a tight ball. âThatâs too bad. What a wash.â A wistful sigh. âAnd you put on such a lovely event, too.â
The conflicted delight on your face is delicious.
âIâm so sorry.â you murmur. âLet me comp you a ticket to another event. I canât let you go home empty-handed.â
What a turn of phrase.
âYou donât have to do that.â
âI insist. You took time out of your scheduleââ
âGrab a drink with me instead.â He interrupts smoothly. âLift my spirits.â
You hesitate, before shaking your head. âI donât think thatâs a good idea.â
âA friendly drink?â he teases. âWhereâs the harm in that?âÂ
Not like you have a boyfriend to make jealous.
âItâs just, I ought to get this stuff back.â You nod toward the neat stack of placards, the tote overflowing with the eventâs paraphernalia. âCalculate the scores, check compatibilityâŚâ
âCanât your colleague do that for you?â he presses. âThink you deserve a drink for a job well done,â he adds, watching the way you react to the compliment, soaking it in like itâs the first kind word youâve heard all day. âI saw you working hard all night. Busy girl, eh?â
Indecision shines behind your curled lashes. The gears turn in real-time, weighing the consequences of saying yes.
His nails puncture the paper in his pocket when you flash yet another sorry smile.Â
âIâm flattered,â you say, ever so gracious, âbut I really canât. Iâll send that free ticket to your email.â
The dismissal lands like a slap. Indignation sprints across his mind with disbelief snapping at its heels. You donât give him a chance to tell you where to send that email instead, just the brush-off, slipping away before he can get a word in edgewise. Choler floods the chambers of his heart, draws a bit of blood.
Well, thereâs that bit of fight he wanted.
You donât look back, and he doesnât blame you. You must feel the weight of his stare between your shoulder blades, on the curve of your ass. You whisper to your coworker, gesturing for their help with you.
His jaw flexes, fingers uncurling from the shredded card in his pocket.
Thatâs alright.
What kind of man would he be if he didnât have a backup plan?
The moment unfolds as if coincidence.
John times his approach as you exit the florist, fingers idly stroking the petals of the bouquet in your arms, the same tulips you buy every week. He pictures doing the same to you.
He moves as you step onto the pavement. The collision is gentle, considering, but hard enough that his shoulder clips yours to knock your balance. Enough that you let out a startled gasp, grip faltering, sending the bouquet tumbling from your hands and bag jerking down your arm.
âShit,â he mutters, crouching before you can. He gathers the flowers, offering them back with a small, sheepish smile. âDidnât see you there, love. My faultâWait.âÂ
He tilts his head, narrows his eyes like heâs only just putting it together. Like he didnât spend the morning in your shadow to ensure this exact moment.Â
Your attention jumps up to him in pure surprise.
âI know you. Miss Matchmaker.â
Recognition washes over your face, and in the span of a breath, confusion gives way to composure. Itâs impressive how quickly you smooth it over, tucking away irritation.
âJohn?â
âYou remember me.â
How could she not?
âOf course,â You take the flowers, clutching them tight. Never without a shield. âWhat a, um, small world.â
John huffs a short laugh, rocking back on his heels. ââFraid so.â He lets the silence stretch, drinking you in. Youâre too poised to flinch outright, but heâs trained to catch it anyway. Fingers crinkling the paper, chin tipping a fraction higher.
Youâre dressed for errands, wrapped in a trench that frustrates more than it should. He knows whatâs beneathâhaving committed the curve of your waist to memory, the shape of your hips. Itâs irritating, really.
Still, he likes the look of you like this. Definitely the type to never step outside without making yourself presentable. The type to live by the mantra you never know who you might run into. Collar turned up against the chill, hair styled meticulously away from your face, not hiding that guarded expression. Youâre assessing him the same.Â
Good.
No catching you on the back foot today, not without a push.
âDraw up any matches since last we met?â
You exhale a short, amused breath. âIâm afraid thatâs confidential.â
He grins. âAh, right. Canât have the matchmaker giving away her secrets.â
âYep. Sorry again about your missing card and, umâŚâ You trail off, and John fills in the blank. The rejection. Your insult is forgotten. Water under the bridge, as far as heâs concerned. âI hope you come next time. Weâll get you sorted.â
âDonât think youâll see me there again.â
âNo?â
âDonât think speed datingâs for me.â
You nod knowingly, and hike your bag higher onto your shoulder. âIt isnât for everyone. Some people prefer or have better luck meeting the old-fashioned way.â You lift your wrist and check your watch, the impatient thing that you are. Eager to get home to the hour or two of work you needlessly do every Sunday evening. You start to pull away, already checking out. âWell, I betterââ
He steps forward, boxing you in toward the wall.
âLike this?â
Your brow knits, mouth pressing into an unsure smile that doesnât quite reach your eyes. Polite and strained. You glance at the busy walk, weighing whether itâs worth stepping around or if that would be too rude.
âLike âthisâ? I donâtââ
âTwo people, running into each other by chance.â
The corner of your mouth twitches. Smile lapsing, dropping in and out. Curiosity buried beneath skepticism.Â
âJohnâŚâ
He likes how his name sounds on your lips. He wonders how itâd sound under other circumstances.
âHave dinner with me.â
You blink and shrink back, though thereâs nowhere to go. âI donât think thatâs a good idea.â
âWhy not?â He doesnât let your words land. He leans into them. No retreat. Not when the unseen thread fixing the two of you together tugs on the knuckle of his ring finger.
You adjust your grip on the bouquet. âI donât date clients.â
âHavenât hired you for anything, have I?â He tilts his head, innocent.Â
âA technicality.â
âBut not untrue.â He cocks a brow. âOne dinner. No strings. If you decide halfway through youâd rather be anywhere else, I wonât stop you.â
Another beat of hesitation. Heâs patient. He knows how this works.
Then, finally, you sigh. âFine. One dinner.â
John smiles. âThatâs all I ask.â
For now.
In the days leading to dinner, thereâs not enough work to fill his hands.
Certainly not enough to fill his mind.
His thoughts, however, are consumed by you. Maddening how much of his attention you command, how the brief moments shared echo in his mind long after. A constant reverberation, shaping his thoughts, making him imagine another life. Branches reality in twoâone without you, unthinkable, and the other?Â
A home. A two-storey house with a garden. Kids. Maybe a dog. A do-over. His childhood, but through the looking glass and done right.
A life heâs determined to see the latter into fruition.
Thereâs very little heâs set his mind to that he hasnât achieved.
He assembles an outdoor playset for a young family. Decent-sized house and lot. Not unlike the one he sees behind his eyelids. The little ones badger him with questions, tug at his sleeves, chatter away as he carefully fits the wooden frame together and hangs the swings. Itâs good practice, what with his plans.
When their mother pops outside to offer water, she compliments his aptitude with children. His patience. Assumes he must have a brood of his own, and he doesnât correct her. Itâs in the works.
Her nails are red, like yours, but perfectly maintained. Despite the slight bags under her eyes, thereâs a lightness to her smile that tells him sheâs exactly where she wants to be.
And when she steps away to take a call, he imagines you in her stead. Having it allâa home, a family. Heâll give it to you.Â
She disappears inside. Her children shriek with laughter, and he wipes the sweat from his brow.
Yes. You, standing in the threshold, tea mug warming your hands. Watching a runt or two running wild, belly low with another. Your nails painted that same cherry tint. Chipped, but perfect.
The restaurantâs host recognizes him, heâs sure of it, but he doesnât recognize you. How would he?
Youâre younger than your predecessors, for one. Smiling, for another. Not on Johnâs arm as a captive for one of his fruitless, belated apologies. Nor are you clearly hostage to obligation, for a tired anniversary ritual, a repetition of mistakes. No. Youâre here as someone new, a departure. Johnâs future.
He erases the other manâs disapproval with a banknote slipped into his palm. The coward keeps his lips sealed, ushering you to the table you deserve.
Price, party of two.
Maybe this time next year youâll be celebrating a party of three.
If youâre upset over the serverâs harmless assumptions about the two of you celebrating a special occasion, you hide it behind the menu. After ordering, youâre forced to relinquish it. Nothing left to hide behind.
The scrape of your finger over your thumbnail betrays agitation. A nervous habit heâll break after the engagement. Canât wear his ring without a flawless set.
He doesnât want to change you. Not much. Not beyond what warrants influence.
As the conversation unfoldsâyour preferred wine, the rhythm of your day, the idle pleasantriesâhe studies. His first unobstructed view. No more staring across a crowded room or through your window from his car. Up close and personal.
You are everything he wants. Intelligent, pretty, industrious, and amenable. A woman made to be adored.Â
A wonder you deprive yourself of it.
Johnâs old hand at extracting information. Thereâs little difference between threats, praise, and encouragement. The right pressure and toneâall surface some truth. Heâs practiced on plenty of folks with everything to lose.
But this? Far more delicate. High stakes.
And for all your sugar-spun sweetness and girlish, heart-strewn wardrobe, you are no easy conquest. You play coy. Meet his questions with half-answers, sidestep when you can, parry when you canât. You know youâre being led, but not quite where.
Puppy teeth, but the same sensibilityâyou donât know when to give up and roll over.
All the more proof you need him around.
Itâs cute when you try to go dutch on the bill, flustering all over again when the server informs you Johnâs already paid. Damn near insulting, isnât it? To be taken care of. That insistence on covering yourself, as if you canât afford even the notion of dependency. A lifetime of self-sufficiency turned reflex.
You donât know what to do when someone else takes the reins, and does a good job.
It shouldnât surprise you. Not after heâs played the perfect gentleman. Holding the door. Pulling out your chair. Helping you in and out of your coat. Adamant on following through with escorting you home.
You made him meet at the restaurant. A necessary concession at the time, but a bruise nonetheless.
He acts surprised when he parks outside your building. Compliments the structure, neighborhood, all that. He leans against the driverâs side door, hands tucked into his pockets. Casual, as if he hasnât plotted out how heâd get you inside.
You tiptoe around a goodbye. Promising.
The nerve comes, eventually.
âWere youâŚ?â
He tilts his head, feigning mild curiosity. âWas I what?â
You square your shoulders in that trumped-up confidence. âComing up?â
He lets the question hang for a beat longer than necessary to let you hear yourself.Â
This is a surprise. You pushed back on the date, but here you are asking him up. Lonely, needy creature. Youâre probably wet.
Briefly, he reconsiders crowding you into the lift and watching that wide-eyed surprise melt. Years of stratagem hold him in place. The long con is always the smarter play.
âOh, darl,â he murmurs, a hint of a smile tugging at the corner of his mouth. âI am flattered.â
He injects enough warmth seep into his voice to make the rejection sting without cutting deep. âI was only teasing earlier,â he adds, a playful glint in his eyes, the perfect balance between charm and rebuke. âThink we ought to get to know each other better before that, donât you?â
The shift is immediate. Your face falls. A flicker of surprise, a flash of embarrassment that you rush to mask with a nervous laugh, waving your hand as if physically brushing it off. That confidence of yours really is paper-thin. Fragile. So easy to poke and prod. Moldable.
âAh, of course. I didnât meanââ
No, but you did, and thatâs the beauty of it. You want to mean it. You donât know how to ask for what you want yet. Another lesson to teach.
âDonât fret,â he soothes, taking a step closer, fingers finding your chin, featherlight, guiding it back. âHow about a kiss goodnight instead, hm?â He taps the divot of your chin. âTide you over until next time?â
He tastes your perfume first, having caught hints of it all night. Now itâs stronger, heady as you lift your chin. He waits until your eyelids flutter shut before leaning in, smelling burnt sugar before he samples it.
John knows indulgence best through cigars and smoke rolling over his tongue. But you? You cut through what thatâs dulled, brighter. Red wine, velvet and ripe, staining the sweetness like crushed cherries. Itâs Herculean, the effort to not change his mind and hustle you indoors. His mouth presses more firmly, and for one dizzying moment, he imagines the taste of your skinâlicking sugar out of the bowl.
You try to get closer, but he cuts it off.
Your lips are wet, trembling when he pulls back, and you wear shameâwhite-hot and burning. In disbelief that you asked, arenât you? What has gotten into you?
âOh, I got lipstick on your mouth, let meââ
âLeave it.â
He pulls over once on the drive home, rummaging through the glove compartment to wipe the smear of your lipstick from his mouth. The sight of the red stain sends a pulse of heat straight down. Youâd lose your head if you saw him now, he thinks, flicking open his belt in the dark. What you do to him.Â
He barely gets a good tug in before he ruins that stain, tasting sugar in the back of his throat.
Home in bed, he pulls up the headshot from your agencyâs website and dips a hand under his waistband again.
Just something to tide him over.
You wait a standard three days to text. He calls instead.
You sound breathless, which makes sense. Nowâs about the time you leave the gym.
âIâm scoping out a potential venue,â you explain, rushed, coming down from whatever routine you finished. He pictures it. Tight leggings, top clinging to sweaty skin, earbuds half-pulled out because youâre walking home alone. âI was thinking you could help?â
âHelp? What do you need me for?â
âThe atmosphereâs different when Iâm alone. I donât get a good sense if a space is conducive to dates.â
Youâre asking him to play along. To be part of your world. Giving him another opening.
He smiles, unseen but satisfied. âRight. What am I getting out of this?â
Thereâs a short laugh on the other end, meant to cover your nerves. âDinner,â you offer. âAnd the opportunity to let me know how you really felt about our services.â
Clever girl. Keeping it professional and leaving yourself an out.
âHow could I refuse?â
The restaurant is a hole in the wall. Heâdâve never found it on his own. A perfect setting, but not for what you said. Testing the atmosphere. John knows better.
Youâre staring through the menu, picking your thumb.
âWould it help if I set a timer and moved to the next table in five minutes?â
Your head snaps up. âExcuse me?â
âYouâre fidgeting, sweetheart.â
You pull your hand away like youâve been caught, setting it flat on the table.
âNervous?â
A quiet admission. âMaybe.â
âDonât date much, do you?â
Your spine straightens. âI told you, Iâm focused on my career.â
âMm.â John hums, leaning back. âNot a judgment, sweetheart. Just an observation. I merely find it interesting. You run speed dating. Introduce people. Help them make connectionsâŚâ
âIâm good at it,â you murmur, a shield being drawn up.
âNever said you werenât. Simply curious why someone so good at helping others find their person hasnât found one of her own. Especially when sheâs a catch.â
You donât answer, not right away. But you donât look away, either.
Good girl. Let him in.
The silence goes taut. Then, a sigh, and you lift your eyes again. Thereâs something different in them now. A crack in that carefully maintained composure. Vulnerability.
âI used to date a lot, actually. I had bad luck with men, though.â
Johnâs thighs flex under the table, hot and hungry pulse running through him. Finally. Finally, some answers.Â
âTell me about them.â
Itâs not a question. An invitation. One youâre teetering on the edge of accepting. Curiosity wins out in the end. You bite.
âThere wereâŚa few. Nothing serious. Not for lack of trying.â You confess, embarrassed. âI attract the wrong kinds of men.â
Funny. âWhat kind of wrong?â
âA flake,â you start, bitter. âCanceled more dates than he showed up for. I stopped bothering after a while.â
One.
âA man-child. Wanted a girlfriend who was more like his mother. Expected me to cook, clean, take care of everything while he played video games.â
Two.
âA cheapskate.â A hollow laugh escapes. âTook me out on a âfancyâ date and made me pay after he âforgotâ his wallet. On my birthday.â
Three.
âAndâŚâ Your throat works around the last one. The worst one. âA cheater. Slept with one of my friends. I walked in on them.â
Four.
Your four horsemen of the dating apocalypse.
Johnâs jaw clenches, though he schools his features. He canât have you seeing what that information really does to him. Canât let you know how badly it makes him want to hunt them down and fix it.
On top of it all, you tack on how they made you swear off dating for a year. Which turned into two, then three.
âThree years?â
You bite your lip, insecurity crossing your face. âIs thatâŚbad?â
Three years. Three years of no one waiting on you, no one to spoil you. An empty flat, and, he assumes, a cold bed.
âNot at all. Only been on a few dates in the last year, myself.â âDateâ is a strong term for tossing part of his pay at pretty girls on screen for a chat. âIs that what this is, then? A date? Couldâve sworn I was here to help scope out the space.â
âNo, IâI did ask you here to help with the venue, John. Thatâs all. Really.â A lie that twists you into knots, wrings your hands, fiddles with your necklace. Itâs short-lived. âI suppose, if you want, it can be a date.â The words come out shy, testing the waters. âBut so weâre clear, Iâm not looking for anything serious, alright? I donât know if Iâm ready.â
Another lie. A thousand nights alone? Youâre ready.
He smirks. âWell. Regardless, yâknow how to make a man feel wanted, sweetheart.â
And if that doesnât make you preen.
The conversation shifts when dinner arrives, treading into gentler waters. John alludes to his job, a morsel, and you, sweet girl that you are, donât press for more. Content to gnaw on the bones he offers, easy details meant to keep those puppy teeth of yours busy. His parents. Where heâs from. How he wasnât much of a student. How he worked under the table as a kitchen porter at a golf club until he joined up.
It works better than the wine, softening you bit by bit. The prick who poked at your insecurities earlier? Heâs dissolving into someone else entirely. Someone youâre trying to figure out. Someone you might even like.
Your eyes linger longer when he speaks now. Your smile turns natural, less forced. You lean in when he talks, hanging on his words.
John knows exactly what heâs doing, feeding you enough to keep you intrigued, to have you looking at him through softer eyes. Because if youâre trying to piece him together, trying to understand himâyouâre already invested. Thatâs how heâll get you.
One crumb at a time.
Itâs necessary groundwork. Sooner or later, detailsâll come out. After all, youâre going to marry him. Certain things will have to beâ
âAny, umâŚnotable girlfriends? Since I told you about my four awful exes.â
Innocent. Fair. It still puts him on edge.
A big test for both of you. He told himself heâd lie weeks back. A fabrication to allow him to censor the truth and leave his past behind. See if he couldnât get out of his payments and wash his hands completely of his ex-wives, call in a couple favors, push papers.
Yet now, now that youâve bared your heart to him like a good and honest girl, he suppose itâs only right to tell the truth.
Thatâs not the plan, though.
Heâll phone a few names tomorrow. Get started on the paperwork.
âNo one worth mentioning.â
The rest of the evening is easygoing from there. You remain relaxed, the earlier stiffness gone, but youâre still holding back. You let him toy with one of your rings for a few seconds before pulling away. Your feet bump under the table, and you tuck yours beneath your chair. Your eye contactâs better, but you find reasons to look away.
Youâre resisting whatâs building between you. He can see it clear as day. For one simple reason, John bets.
You donât believe in love. Donât trust it, at least.
Not anymore. Maybe you did once, back when it was uncomplicated, hadnât soured in your mouth, and burned you down into the frazzled woman heâs observed. Before it became studied instead of felt. A series of points and calculated risks, a numbers game that you understand better than most. An expert on what works for everyone else but never quite trusting enough to let it work for you.
Itâs why you throw yourself into your work. Why you obsess over climbing a ladder built on the successful couplings of others, measuring fulfillment in repeat dates and engagement announcements. If you canât have it for yourself, at least you can manufacture it for someone else.
The problem is, he does believe in love.
Heâs just never been any good at it.
Itâs one of the few things heâs never let go of, even if heâs never known how to hold it properly. Heâs always been better at destruction than constructionâan arsonist, never an architect. He sets the foundation only to strike the match and burn it to the ground. Thatâs why his ex-wives only speak of him through intermediaries. Thatâs why his relationships have been more like wrecking balls than anything resembling stability.
Itâs why he throws himself into his work.
Itâs why youâre perfect for him, even if you fuss about it and tell yourself otherwise. Insist you want nothing serious to do with men again.
He knows better. Knows that under all that steel and sugar, thereâs a heart that wants and aches, no matter how stubbornly you try to deny it.
This time, you surprise him. The dinner is pre-expensed on a company card. The grief that stirs with his ego ends smothered by the victorious look on your face when he pockets his wallet.
It makes you bold.
You suggest a pub a street over for afters, and he lets you lead. Men shrink away on the walk with him beside you, a hand on the small of your back.Â
The tables are smaller here, giving your legs nowhere to go when he spreads his underneath and cages them in.
Another round comes. Time slips by. The noise of the pub hums in the background, but his focus never wavers. With every sip, the distance narrows.
Inevitably, the conversation returns to speed dating and its apparent science. You try to stick to your principles. Too bad he has years of experience in bending those. It doesnât take much more prodding.
âI canât tell you what your dates said, word for word.â
âThen summarize.â
âYou wereâŚâ You vacillate, searching. âLargely described as, um, curt, reserved, and distracted.â
Not inaccurate. Heâs had worse appraisals and assessments.
He chuckles. âMustâve had my eye on someone already.â
âOh?â you say, trying for nonchalance, but it falls flat, hovering awkwardly in the air.
John shifts, stretching his legs out and closing them back into your space like he owns itâowns you.Â
God, you are so close. Skirting his reach.Â
Youâve reached a critical juncture. Make or break. Two dates, thatâs all it takes, isnât it? Two dates, and life itself stretches out with endless possibilities. Weeks of wanting have led to this. All the work heâs put in to get you here, to this goddamn table, where he can almost taste what could be.
His ring on your finger. His baby on your hip. Your own success story.
No oneâs ever gotten anywhere worth going without a push. Without a nudge to take that last step and get over that line theyâve drawn for themselves.
John licks his lip. âThink you know who, sweetheart.â
It will take time, he realizes on the way to yours, to fully tear down the walls youâve built around yourself. He feels it in the tentative kiss you place on the corner of his mouth at your buildingâs door, and again in the lift.Â
Heâs no stranger to controlled demolition. This time, he wonât half-ass it. No more mistakes or half-hearted efforts. Third timeâs the charm, and heâs ready to make sure of it.
Whatever backsliding occurs between the pub and your front door, he erases mouth-first. For a split second, he catches that flicker of uncertainty in your eyes, the subtle hesitation that says youâre not sure whether you should give in, but he doesnât give you the luxury of doubt. Youâre here. Heâs here. Itâs inevitable.
With both of you starved for somethingâanythingâthereâs no room for second-guessing. The barren years of your dry spells? Tinder, piled high.
Between fervent kisses, he steals glances at your place, cataloging details. Every corner of your world is his to explore now, but the bedroom is the prize. The view is better here, inside. No longer looking up at some unreachable, untouchable version of you from the outside. He has access now. Control. Itâs a quiet triumph that settles in his chest, a thrill he canât quite suppress. It seeps into his touch, his hands finding the hem of your dress, claiming inch after inch as if heâs laying claim to the territory heâs finally breached.
All it took was a little patienceâand a hell of a lot of persistence.
John pushes you until your legs hit the bed, hands dimpling into your hips, half-tucked under your dress. He tugs at the fabric. âWant to take this off fâme, baby?â
âYeah, okayâŚâ
While your view is obscured by the dress, his eyes roam your bedroom. Itâs exactly as he imaginedâsophisticated and cozy with shades of rose, peach, and marigold. A collection of framed photos on the bureau heâll study tomorrow. On your nightstand, a tray with jewelry and lipstick tubes. Dog-eared booksâromance, unsurprisingly.
The dress pools at your feet. John takes in the sight of you, his smirk widening. Rubs circles with his thumbs on the skin exposed by the high arches of your deep plum panties.
âYou wear this for me?â He abandons the bottoms, touch drifting up to cup your breasts through the matching brassiere. âAll dolled up, planning on getting lucky?â
His thumbs roll over your hard nipples, coaxing a gasp from your lips, and your hands fly to his wrists. Not to stop him, but to steady yourself. Your legs tremble, barely holding you up.Â
âNo, itâs notâI didnât want to assumeââ
âMm.â He hums, eyes half-lidded. âBut you hoped.â
Your weak denial dies on your lips when he guides you down, gently but insistently. He maneuvers you like he owns you already, coaxing you to sit, then easing you back until your spine meets the mattress. His hands work their way down your legs, kneading the goose-pimpled skin of your thighs and calves. Each press of his thumbs is purposeful, a silent reminder of whoâs in charge now.
And then he sinks lower.
John shoulders between your legs, prostrating himself on the floor, knees hitting the carpet as if thisâyouâare worth worship. His head dips, lips grazing along the inside of your thigh.
âEasy, love.â His hands are steady as they hook behind your knee, lifting and folding one of your legs over his broad shoulder. The angle opens you up to him and reveals the damp staining the cotton. He sets your other foot on the edge of the bed. âLet me take care of you.â
Your breath hitches, and thatâs when he sees it. The moment you let the reins slip.
âGood girl,â he praises. His grin, hidden between your thighs, stretches with a kiss.
Candyfloss sweet, with a pinch of salt.
He called it like he saw it then. Heâs smug that itâs true.
Even filtered through the thin barrier of the gusset sopping up its share, you are a wonder on the palate. A delight on the senses. He noses over the slight springiness of the curls trapped underneath, tongue laving over every dip where the fabric clings. Everywhere but where you want him.
âJohn, John, please,â Youâre gasping on the bed, bright whines spilling out. Hands strangling the duvet.Â
âNeed somethinâ?â He puffs over your drenched panties, rubbing his rough, bearded cheek on your thigh deliberately. âGotta ask.â
Itâs another minute of torture for you to work it out. It comes out in a whisper. âTake them off, please.â
âThereâs a girl. Lift up.âÂ
The panties come away and promptly disappear. In the low light, your cuntâs a mess, shiny with a mix of soaked-in spit and arousal. Perfect like the rest of you.
âOh,â the single word you manage when John gets his mouth on you unimpeded.
Victory tastes like burnt sugar melting on his tongue, slow and rich, heating into syrup. He groans into your cunt, digging one hand into your thigh to keep it hooked over his shoulder. His other hand wraps around your ankle, anchoring your other foot in place.
You twitch, moans pitching higher and higher, trying to press yourself closer into his mouth. He doesnât let you. He keeps you right where he wants youâpinned open with every tremor and gasp fueling that molten heat rolling down his spine and thickening his cock.
âEasy, love,â he murmurs, lips brushing skin. His thumb strokes soothing circles over your ankle, a mockery of tenderness compared to the ruthless way heâs devouring you. His tongue works with intent, coaxing you to the edge.
His grip deserts your thigh, and you clench around the finger he slips in while youâre nice and distracted. Lets off your clit with a pop, pulling back to admire your face scrunched in pleasure.
John kisses the crease of your thigh. âThis what youâve been doing all by yourself, baby?â His taunts, dripping with satisfaction as he works you open. âBet they werenât enough, were they?â
His smirk deepens when he adds a second, savoring the way your pussy almost sucks them in. When you donât answer, he stills. âWere they?â
Youâre a quick learner. âNo, no, they werenât.â
âThought so. Gonna give you one more before I fuck you, gonna need it.âÂ
You take the third with a quiet thread of praise. His cockâs pulsing hard against the zipper of his trousers, aching to switch places with his hand. Itâs magnetic. The whole world centers on your weeping cunt, squeezing three of his fingers to death with how badly you want to come. Itâs a miracle you still havenât yet, given how you circle the edge. Heâs an inkling of what you need, but he wonât let you backpedal.
You speak in front of rooms of lovelorn strangers. You will speak to your man.
He gingerly pumps his fingers into you as deep as theyâll go, curling and petting in all the right places. Your clit twitches, abandoned.Â
âJohnââ Yes. ââwill youâmouth, please.â
âHm?â
âMy clit, please, need your mouthââ
Heâll work on articulation another time. He dips his head and licks a broad stripe over your neglected bud, then molds his mouth to it. Grunts around it when your fingers thread into hair and tug down.
Thatâs when the floodgates open, and you finally give into everything youâve held at armâs length for too long. Toes curling, muscles tensing, a heel digging into one of his vertebrae. Must be a relief.
John rises to his feet as you come down, knees popping in the silence. He licks his lips, wiping them off on the back of his hand. He towers, intentionally overwhelming and blocking out the room as he looms. Casts a shadow he hopes you feel on every inch of your skin.
He works his belt open while you piece yourself back together, though thereâs no point in that. Itâs a bright spot when you awkwardly reach behind your back and free your tits without being asked.Â
A wild look in your eye. Smudged makeup, hair coming unstyled. The loss of composure heâs waited for. Naked hunger in your gaze, eating him up as his clothes hit the floor. Youâve been with boys, sure, but John knows what he looks like. And he looks like a man.
He doesnât ask about a condom. Gentleman enough he has one in a pocket, but not enough that heâll do the decent thing and remind you about it.
You squeak in his neck when the steel wool above his cock scrapes your inner thighs. He grinds against you lazily, holding you in the band of his arms to kiss and share your taste.Â
âItâs a lot, baby,â John warns, rutting himself through the mess between your legs. He swallows hard when he prods your hole with the tip, squeezing the base to warn himself. It notches, your body yielding despite your squirming. Skittish even now. From there itâs a smooth, slow glide.
Still knocks the breath out of the both of you.
âOh god, John, f-fuck, itâs soââ
Your cuntâs hot as an oven. Wet and fitted for him. Gives in easily now that the right manâs filling it. Knows heâs it for you, meaning itâs only a matter of time for your head and heart to catch up.Â
His chest and belly meld to yours as he keeps you pinned, hips pushing until theyâre flush, and heâs sunken to the hilt, grinding in to claim whatever space is left. âGood girl. Let me in.â
âSâgood, big,â you sound delirious, slurring as nonsense tumbles out in a breathless rush.Â
He barely lifts his hips those first minutes. Warming you up for whatâs coming, what heâs been starving for this whole time. Getting an eyeful of your sweet, dumbfounded expression, coming to terms with it. Figuring it all out while your pussy stretches around his cock and greedily swallows it whole.
John readjusts, peeling his sweaty skin from yours, keeping himself pressed deep into the spot thatâs got you strangling his cock. His hands wedge under your knees and push, allowing himself to finally build up to his desired pace. An urgency that speaks to his need to usher in the future and slip a ring on you.
âFeel like a dream,â he pants, staring down at the bounce of your tits through half-shut eyes. The smell of sweat and sex and your cunt under his nose. âYouâre so pretty like this, sweetheart. Yeah, look good under me.â
You struggle to breathe around his thrusts.
âKnew the moment I saw you, yâknow. Took one look and knew. Knew that not a single girl Iâd speak to would measure up to you.â His rhythm never faltering. âBut you made me work for it, didnât you?â
You pant, fingers clawing the pillow above your head. âYouâYou made me work, tooâyou didnât come upâah, that night.â
John laughs, the sound rough as sandpaper, deep and throaty, and it rattles through you. It drives him to push a little harder, to coax more of those desperate sounds out of you. âAnd look where we are now, baby.â
Tears slip out of your eyes, painting black streams of mascara on your cheeks. Youâre wrecked and heâs barely scratched the surface.
You shouldnât have ever mentioned babies if this isnât where you wanted to end up.
Your second orgasm builds similarly to the first. Shaking legs, head sinking into the mattress, spine arching. Stars appear in your pupils, shiny under the glass of tears, and lock onto him, transfixed. A whole mess of big feelings. Uncertainty, confusion, disbelief. Fury, ardor. He can tell, despite everything, a part of you does not want to want this. But gravity doesnât ask permission before it pulls.
He fishes spit out of his cheek and drops it under a thumb on your clit to bring it home.
âGonna come on my cock, pretty girl? Squeeze me tight?âÂ
âJohn, Iâm gonnaâIâm gonnaââ
âYou can do it, too good of a girl not toâChrist.â
Whatever plea you utter gets lost in a feverish rush and a full-throated moan. You go tight as a vise, clamping down on him as you come. Liquid heat rolls down his spine and his pace turns choppy. Fingers slipping from your knee and clit, taking bruising handfuls of your hips heâll kiss better later.Â
He plugs himself deep, coming to a sudden halt to spill. Every muscle in his body goes rigid as he plants himself at the root, filling you in hot, desperate spurts. It goes on longer than he thought it would. You milk it out of him, and it leaves a stringy, sticky mess, tagging over your folds when he reluctantly withdraws.
A whimper sputters from your bitten lips when he lets his drooling tip spew its last over your winking, fucked hole.
The two of you catch your breath in silence.
You saidâI donât know if Iâm ready.
He wonders what youâll say in the morning.
John coaxes a third and final orgasm out of you as he massages his cum back into you, shushing when you cry a little more on his shoulder about it. Whining about it being too much. Same as when he wipes you clean and you go shy on him. Only cracking your legs open again when he reminds you how proud he is of you for taking him so well. For everything.
He waits until youâre deeply asleep, mouth slightly open, completely immovable, to climb out of bed.
He pads through your flat bare like he owns the place. A glass of water to keep him company as he leisurely tours.
Your work bag sits, still packed, next to your desk at the window. He kicks it under. This will be the first weekend you donât lift a finger if he has his way.Â
At least. Not in the service of others.
John stares at the pill case on your bathroom vanity as he empties his bladder. His next hurdle.
Heâll let you keep your job. It makes you happy, and heâs not so cruel to take that from you. But if you ever change your mind, if your investment in it wavers, he wonât stop you. Between his pay and benefits, the handyman businessâheâs more than capable of providing for the two of you. And when the time comes for more, when you need to feed, clothe, and house his whelps, heâll take care of that too.
After all, thereâs very little heâs set his mind to that he hasnât achieved.
cw: unedited, mild misogyny? if you squint?
price x fem reader thoughts
John Price definitely loves being a little bit of an asshole. He just adores being the traditional dominant provider type for you and spoiling you, but sometimes you get a bit to spoiled. If he doesn't like your attitude he'll fuck you from behind with your face buried in his bicep, whispering the filthiest shit in your ear. " is this all ya needed luv? hmm? big strong man to fuck you silly? little miss independent needs to be reminded who this pussy belongs too, yeah?" he has your face covered in drool and his arm covered in bite marks. He especially loves to grab you by the hair and pull your head back. "want to hear those pretty sounds luv. Make sure the neighbors know I take good care of you" all you can do is whine and steady yourself in his arms as the sounds of his fast pace thrusts fill the room.
i cannot get over how low his jeans are here
John Price who fucks you for the first time and now itâs all he can think about. Your warm cunt wrapped around him so tightly and your nails digging into the backs of his thighs. When he showers the day following, he traces the marks with his fingertips and his dick is immediately hard at the reminder of you. His hand wraps around his length and his head fills with images of you in front of him, soap running down your body collecting between your tits. He comes within 3 minutes.
John Price who hasnât seen you in days around base, no matter how far he wanders. Not until a meeting the following Friday, youâre sat in a chair, leg crossed on top of the other and hands resting in your lap. You try to look engaged in whatâs being said, but he can tell your mind is elsewhere. And when the meeting ends and you stand, reaching your arms behind your back to stretch with a groan and a sliver of your stomach showing, heâs hard again.
John Price who shows up at your room later that night, his head shamefully hung low and dick straining in his pants. When you open the door wearing a tank top and sleep shorts he has to fight himself from grabbing onto the flesh of your thighs. Instead he just stares at your bare legs in front of him, already thinking about how heâs going to leave marks of his own.