Venting Time!!
venting time!!
sometimes I rlly hate myself, not like when I want to end my life, but like questioning my existence. I hate how I'm not doing anything productive when I have an essay due on Friday, my room is so messy, and there's a painting I can work on, I want to be better, I want to do it, but I won't. It also doesn't help that yk, I feel like I'm nobodys best friend, I'm just backup, tbh, I don't wanna sound petty, but ik that I'm the friend that would litterally give my days to make you feel better, and nobody would do the same. I have great friends at school, yea, I have a bsf, but lk I'm not her first choice, which, tbh, hurts. Like, yk, when the sidewalk is to narrow, I have to walk behind, and its been like that for years. I'm relieved when I get home, bc that's where tumblr is! I genuinely feel better when i come home and see 8 activity. Like, I have great friends, and I'm soso grateful. But I would say I'm just there. I could be excitedly talking abt something and what would be the result? A bored "mhm", or, no one would be listening, so I would just slowing end my sentence. One time, I was with my bsf, we were finally alone, and yk what happens? She's pissed bc one of our others friend was with someone else. Like, welcome to the fucking club! It's been like that for me for years, I'm sorry. So she's pissed and I KNOW, that she was not listening to me. Ik this is a normal fear, that no one actually likes me and just tolerates me to be nice, but this is a first, that it hit me so fucking hard. I saw a post where it was like "your bed has seen more emotions then anyone else" AND I FELT THAT. So summary, I feel like an extra, a big filler in my own life
So for ppl basically going thru same thing, even if I don't know u, I fucking love you and you deserve the world bestie <33
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thank you for reassuring me I feel like I would get shot by that person if I even just appeared in their ask box
Hi. Holds your hand. Reminder that:
No one will hate you for sending asks
No one will hate you for spamming them
No one will hate you for interacting with them
No one will hate you for sending them a dm
No one will hate you for checking in on them
No one will hate you for talking with them
And if they do I’ll beat them up ᕦ(ò_óˇ)ᕤ
<3
James : *hugging regulus from behind* remember when you told me to go to the pharmacy?
Regulus : yes?
James : they’re out of my ADHD meds for 5 days
Regulus : oh my god
James : it’s going to be a fun week
Regulus : I’m going to Sirius’
James : in sickness and in health reggie
idk abt u but I have the posture of a motherfcking shrimp and its not even funny anymore
"Men never start drama", shut up and go open history books you uneducated peasant.
The Marauders in an argument about which one of them is the most badass so Remus goes:
"I'm a FUCKING WEREWOLF."
Which would have been a trump card if it weren’t for Sirius immediately mouthing off with:
"And I'm fucking a werewolf, your point?"
And that's how James and Peter find out they're together.
I think I'm in 15 with 2 more I have to make so 17 I think-
When you're in 4 Tumblr roleplay communities, have 3 roleplay side blogs, and one of those side blogs is in 3 different roleplay groups.
WOLFSTAR! ROSEKILLER!
Pandalily!
DORLENE!
Jegulus!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
its giving me to my bsf in a caring but also "ur so stupid and forgetful" way <3
did you sleep well tonight? (I love you) we should do this one day (I love you) did you eat? (I love you) I brought you this because it's your favorite (I love you) have you taken your vitamins? (I love you) I made this for you (I love you) did you get home safe? (I love you) I made you some tea (I love you) how's the project that you're working on? (I love you) don't forget your umbrella (I love you) take my scarf (I love you) I'll wait with you (I love you) I'll wait for you (I love you) (I love you) (I love you)
scissors 6 ft away plz
I’m not cutting my hair this year. Waist length hair come to me
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I was so ahead of the curve, the curve became a sphere-- Chappell Roan my beloved
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