I Actually Don't Know

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Ok you guys please just trust me on this

When Sirius and Regulus were little, Regulus realized that NOTHING he wanted to say made him happy. He couldn’t verbalize what he truly felt. He never knew what to say to his parents and he could never say the right thing to Sirius either. So he just went mute. Stopped talking. Sirius called him a coward, and honestly? He WAS afraid.

When Sirius ran away, Regulus eventually learned to speak again. Years later, they meet up and Regulus just absolutely GOES OFF on Sirius for being a shitty brother before he ran. Sirius tries to defend himself in the middle of Regulus’s big speech and regulus sternly says “Sirius, I’m speaking”.

Sirius nearly shit his pants.

where u at now then

why couldn’t i just stay in japan bro

Is it just me that when I was younger I used to have little meltdowns because I could feel the bump of my sock when I walked

hey so ow

Regulus’ Letter to James (from this)

James,

I thought I had done right by you, you know? I hated myself for the pain I caused you but I was willing to bear that memory alone if it meant that you could live your life without the burden of the time you spent with me. It had worked for some time and if I could control it, it would work forever. You would never think of anything more than Sirius’ Death Eater brother when you heard the name Regulus Black. I’m sorry, James, I’m so sorry.

Part of me always knew that I would die young. Whenever I tried to picture the future, I could never see myself with one. I always have to be right, don’t I? Except I was so wrong about so many things. I was wrong about the Dark Lord and you were right. I discovered something evil, James—something beyond what any of us could comprehend. He could never be defeated as long as this evil existed and I have to die to make sure we can get rid of it. I have to die and if you’re reading this, if you remember me, baby, then I’m already gone.

I know it’s not fair. I’ve done things you’ll never forgive me for, and things I don’t forgive myself for, either. I hope you don’t love me again but I know you. I know you can’t stop yourself and I wanted to give you something. I love you, too, and I never stopped. I face death in the hope that you live the life you deserve. If the Dark Lord goes away, you can have everything you wanted, James. I hope your son grows up safe and loved, free of this war, and that you’ll be there with him every step of the way. I won’t say I regret obliviating you but I am sorry that it came to that. I’m sorry about so much that I fear this piece of parchment will sizzle and waste away if I tried to pour it all on it. I’m sorry that you remember now. I couldn’t stop it. I had to die, and I am dead now.

I didn’t live very long, after all, but I want you to know that in whatever time I did get, you gave me love that was bigger than me. The kind that people never seem to find, and I was the fool who gave it up for two years of misery and eventual death.

The what ifs of our situation are hauntingly beautiful but I hope your reality will be even more so. I want nothing but the best for you, with or without me.

Yours always,

R.A.B.

you had some to begin with??

am i overheating?

yes absolutely

HOWEVER

i have seemingly run out of fucks to give

WOAHHHHHHHH THATS- THATS- YES

feeling writing is when you start to write a jegulus story but use a lot of flowers and natural metaphors for regulus by james' perspective because he still has feelings/thinks he has feelings for Lily. But while writing the metaphors changes in astronomical ones and greek tragedies ones, because James started to feel for Regulus.

whaat how did my 13 ao3 tabs go to 19 I have no clue

waiittttt the artstyle is so cuteeee

Friends that judge together stay together

oml I just realized I've been spelling "literally" wrong my whole life.

who was gonna tell me it had one T and two Ls not "litterally"

My ship opinions

like I'm srry but I litterally cannot picture Regulus with anyone else besides James 😭😭