I Started Watching My Love Story And Damn Am I Gay For Yamato-san

I had the best fucking dream last night.

I had a girlfriend, there was world's cutest fucking gay couple, and this one straight couple that was cute as all hell.

The entire dream was just healthy, happy, adorable relationships and I HAVE NEVER BEEN SO MAD THAT I CANT REMEMBER A DREAM, FUCK!

It was so cute and heart warming, I feel so blessed that my stupid panicky brain let me have such a nice dream

*Edit

I actually had this dream almost a year ago, this post has been in my drafts since I woke up from said dream.

Recently my dreams nightmares are a lot more.... death-filled with a few handfuls of false accusations and shitty social shit for good measure.

I miss you, happy, cute couples dream, you were so pleasant.

I love the person who drew this so, by association, I love these drawing(also they're amazing, just sayin')

*gestures wildly at these work of art*

*and the work of art's beautiful drawings*

Pictures of an egg I painted on Easter a while ago! I realised that I hadn't posted these so I thought I'd do that😁

My... baby??? Angel????? Sweet baby child??? I'm love her???????? Must protect???????????? Am mother????????

I'm lying.

To you,

To myself,

Maybe everybody...

What if I'm lying to myself?

What if everything I am isn't true?

What if I'm just acting?

What if I don't really love you?

What if it doesn't matter-

How badly I want to?

What if I'm a liar?

And don't even belong here?

What if I'm wrong?

And have been tricking everyone?

What if I've been manipulative?

And stringing everyone along?

What if all that I am-

Isn't even real?

What if I'm just fooling you?

And that isn't how I feel?

What if I've been grasping-

At something that isn't there?

What if I've been faking?

And I don't really care?

Cause zoning out

And talking loud

Are all that seems to fit.

What if that's why being gay

And being scared

And being nice

And being aware

And trying to be kind

Never really made sense

When I'm just going to die.

And I thought writing this would

Make me feel a little better

But inside it feels like peeling off

Almost every layer

And finding nothing inside

Of me

But a skeleton, blood, and guts

What if I'm just a liar?

And that's all I ever was?

Because I can't do this by my own renown

And saying I'm not gay

Feels like I'm letting myself down.

Feels like greeting a stranger.

Feels like the opposite

Of letting everyone I care about

D

O

W

N.

And what if that's who I should be?

What's if unlike me-

That's who they should see!

Perfect

Perfect

Perfect

Don't let anybody down-

You have to hate yourself to be happy!

While just wearing a frown

I feel myself getting down

From this pedestal I built

Maybe this-

A liar

A fake

A disappointment

A mistake

What if...

What if that's all that I can hope to me?

I just hope I won't get worse.

So, tranfering stuff from my old phone ended up making some bombin' ass edits to a few shit photos I took over a year ago, enjoy the strange improvements👌

-Buttons!🐢

I CHANGED MY MIND ABIUT MY HIGHSCHOOL BEING A HELLHOLE, MY FRIEND GOES THERE AND SAID THAT THEY MISSED ME SO IM REALLY EXCITED TO GO BACK NOW!

I love these dorks💚💛 These are both my own ocs: Pidgeon and Daisy! Pidge is the tol, reserved, dorky one and Daisy is the smol, chubby, loud one. I love then sm

WHAT THE FUCK, RAINBOW! THE FUCK DO YOU FUCKING MEAN "THIS WILL END IN FLAMES???" BITCH LIKE THE FUCK IT WILL, YOURE NOT HURTING MY BOYS! DONT YOU FUCKING TOUCH THEM!

I have some... feelings about the Carry on sequel that I have to wait two years for.