I've Been Im A Complete Bubble Whole Summer. Haven't Gone Into Town At All, Just Work And Rotting. Which

I sat behind her in class and I saw a kpop stage vid on her recommended page 😳

What the fuck is wrong with my brain. I met the ppl in my uni course yesterday, one girl caught my eye, we spoke once.....and now my brain is cutting to lowkey romantic fantasies about her.

It would be food from store from this town that I won't be able to get before Monday otherwise. And like, the taste and texture of the food haunts me. I can't think abt anyhting else. Even that ill be able to eat other shit when I get home doesn't console me. I can't sleep because all I can think about is that food.

The fact that I acc have to resist the thought about skipping school just go and buy food is wild, cause the school in question is a short, nice and actually useful.

Gotta hate it when the hunger gets so suffocating you just start to dryly sob.

I want to own someone.

I want them to devote their entire life to me, to get excited whenever I come around and to beg me for even the slightest attention. I want them to live their life pleasing me, worshipping me and immediately bending backwards at my word.

Is that too much to ask?

I wanna thrift w someone <333

I was set on trying to get into university for one specific degree and obvs have back up options aswell. But that one degree was my certain number 1 option. I seemed to have atleast something certain. And today I just realized it's not for me and I'm very unsure if I'll be able to do it. But it's not like I have anything else, I can't even think of a second option for an option I'm already so doubtful of.

When ur eye make up turned out so nice and it stayed the whole day and would've stayed another if you hadn't started crying randomly when you planned to go to sleep early.

Ohhh 😔

I long for a aub💖💖

I can't bring myself to do anything. I just keep giving up and failing every day, just again and again.

Because of my constant eating during binges and times where i simply was overeating my tooth enamel is completely damaged. And that can nor will never be restored.

My dentist straight up told me I have damaged it already so from now on if I don't stick with very strict, regular meals my teeth will be easily and quickly rittled with holes. But if I haven't been able to do that so far, no matter what. So now I'll just have teeth full of holes, feel constant pain and spend god knows how much trying to keep fixing em to escape atleast some of the pain. Just rip all my teeth out so I could not ruin them further and not chew at all.

I'm just feel sad and devastated. That shit by the age of 19. And for what? Nothing positive or anyhting of resemblance to even show for the years of straight up food addiction.