I Accidentally Said His Name When I Cut Myself. It Was Like A Call, A Beg For Help. I Have Never Even

The fact that I acc have to resist the thought about skipping school just go and buy food is wild, cause the school in question is a short, nice and actually useful.

I wish there was a way for me to get interact with him. For me to even talk to him once. I have so little knowledge, so little perception of him in actuality, but my mind keeps thinking about him. So it's always just craving more to think about.

The urge of having a subby buff boy to dom and take care of is returning guys 😩😩. They're just so cute (even better if they're a yandere too) akkdjdofncb

I'm definitely not talking about toji

I'm so sleepy, I feel like I'm sick. Moving my body is hard. But I still have to cut myself for eating before I go to sleep.

I really wish I had a good spot to cut at home. I have literally nowhere to do it and it's so unfortunate and frustrating.

Starting to cry as soon you stop into your home or room for no reason <<<<

Tomorrow I'll have to go to the staff manager at my summer job and look over my contract. I should ask for more pay than last summer but idk how ughhh.

And then day after that I'll actually have ti go to work. In theory it's not that bad, but just the idea of it fills me with unlimited tread.

Funny how this is supposed to be the best time of my life, but I spend 97% of it being miserable, crying and hoping something would change, knowing that nothing ever will and that it will only get worse from now.