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everyone but especially!:

@fckedupdreamer112 @tadpoletiddles @berry-chewer @mimylore @c0wb0ypants @bibi-likes-to-draw @soosoosoup @cyber333angel @cherrymentholkiz @veneerpossibly

he fr mah pookie 👁👄👁

We Never Have Enough Of Branch 💕

REBLOG IF BRANCH IS YOUR LIL

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250 posts!

dam do I yap alot

Hi guys soo...just wanted to say...

That I now have Twitter 👉🏾@slvt4clay (@ohposhers I'M SORRY PLEASE DON'T BOIL ME)

Ask Star!!! :D

Since I'm really hype for no apparent reason, I'm leaving my inbox open for this silly little "ask me" that I'm doing!

GO READ IT NOW, IT'S SO GOOD

Okay so I got motivated from @taimanzano 's fic and art (where we had a little back n forth discussion in my other account)

D-16 and B-127 duo but adorable parent-adopted kid relationship JSIDJDJSISJSIWJSJSJS

Go read the fic! HERE!

U should Lowkey add peridot and lapis on ur master list, but like only if u wanna 🤧😖

ngl... I only added Peridot cause I don't know that much abt Lapis 😖

STOPPP THIS MADE ME CRY ESPECIALLY WHEN HE SAID 'a-aren't you gonna leave me eventually?, everyone else does... ' LIKE I WANTED TO JUMP THROUGH THE SCREEN AND HUG THAT POOR BABY 😭😭😭 LIKE HE DESERVES BETTER THE WHOLE WORLD AND THE UNIVERSE, POOR BABY.....

🎵'as long as I'm here, no you can hurt you...' 🎵🎧- Billie Eilish 🎧

So, I experienced some deju vu during this scene in Trolls Band Together:

John Dory grabs his backpack, says he's leaving (I'm done, YOLO, etc.), and then the last thing he says is "Goodbye Forever!", followed by Branch's distraught face, and the next thing Branch knows, all his brothers have left him and he never sees them again.

I was trying to figure out why that little snippet stuck with me, then it hit me:

Trolls Holiday in Harmony, when Branch is trying to figure out a gift for Poppy. He's worried about doing the wrong thing, disappointing her or freaking her out, and says "I CAN'T let that happen". He illustrates his point with Poppy packing a suitcase, and what does she say right before she runs off?

Really brings his abandonment issues into the light😢

I've seen a few comments of people being annoyed when Branch said to Poppy "aren't you going to leave me anyway", but they clearly don't understand how trauma affects people's mental and emotional state.

He knows Poppy loves him and doesn't actually believe she'd leave, but after a lifetime of being alone, even though he's happy and loved now, there's still that subconscious fear that he'll end up alone again. Poppy means everything to him, and he can't bear the thought of losing her too, especially as a result of something he's done (his grandma died to save him, and he believed his brothers leaving was his fault because he 'ruined everything' at the concert).

Sometimes this results in Branch trying to push Poppy away, which seems conflicting, yes, but again: trauma messes with your mind. He was already heartbroken and angry at his brothers, so he wasn't thinking clearly and blurted out his hidden main fear.

And when he says "everyone else [leaves me]" I hear "everyone in my life has left me so I must deserve to be alone, so you might as well leave me too."

And that's probably why Branch was so hesitant to be open with Poppy - 1. I might scare her away, and 2. why bother expressing my feelings to someone when I'll likely just lose them anyway. Plus he's still getting used to having someone to confide to in his life. Keeping emotions bottled up for years is a hard habit to get out of.

edit: it's posted!

really random thought for a su fanfic but imagine if Greg never existed and you took his place during the events. Just thinking about it makes me curious, meaning you and the crystal gems raise Steven all together. Just something really random.

ANOTHER SNEEK PEEK OF A WHOLE DIFFERENT FIC I JUST STARTED ON!!!!

yes......ive completely lost it chat 😘💅🏾