They Make Me Sob 24/7

They make me sob 24/7

I always wondered why exactly Suguru replied to Satoru “you should at least hit me with some curses” after he said something profound to him.

I know it has to do with Satoru’s own “love is the most twisted curse of them all” but (in my slow processing) didn’t fully understand how the two relate.

Until it dawned on me.

Let’s say that Satoru did actually say “I love you” to Suguru (whether it’s platonic or romantic, we’ll see, undertones in the show make me think it’s romantic but to each their own). It would fit the movement of his lips in Japanese & English. So, for this argument let’s say Satoru did say “I love you.”

Now, when Suguru replies “you should at least hit me with some curses”, in my head I was like ‘now why would he say that if Satoru told him he loves him?’

The answer’s been right there the whole time.

To Satoru, love is the most twisted curse of them all.

So to tell Suguru “I love you” is the equivalent of doing something worse to him than hitting him with curses.

And that makes perfect sense. In their final moments, Satoru finally tells Suguru the one thing he never said because he thought they had all the time in the world, throwing Suguru back into those feelings they had for each other before it all went wrong, submerging him in all the missed opportunities, the moments where they almost said it, the moments where they drifted apart and hurt each other.

To hear that, Suguru probably felt immense regret at the realization that Satoru loves him and they can’t do anything about it. He’s a dead man and Satoru will be left alone.

But Satoru loves him. And despite it all, that makes him happy. Because Satoru returns his feelings. Everything he’d given him those years they were together, the way they did everything together, the laughs, the challenges, the sweets they shared, the concern and gentle guidance he gave Satoru whenever he was straying from the path…the love he always had for Satoru has been returned this whole time.

And to hear it too late is to have something worse than a curse bestowed upon him.