Imagine An Agere Summer Camp. Regresssors Coming From All Over To Spend A Week To Spend A Week Being

Caregiver healing from having a toxic little with their new little (little talk has plain text in brackets after it)

You get to your little's place after a long day at work. After a bit of playing with them they tell you, "you seem tiwed" (you seem tired)

"sorry, my precious"

"no, itz ok. but r u gud?" (no, it's okay. But are you good?)

"I'm just a little stressed about my work, that's all"

"ooh, jobs are vewy hard. I awways getz eepy ater work" (oh, jobs are very hard. I always get sleepy after work)

"well, good thing you have me here to look after you"

"but whatz abou u???" (but what about you)

"I'm okay"

"nu, bubba needa west wight now" (no, bubba (caregiver) needs to rest right now), your little one takes your hand and leads you over to their bed before weakly pushing you onto it.

"come on munchkin, I'm here to take care of you, not to nap"

"bu-but I needz u ta be wested s-so we can both be appy n pway" (but I need you to be rested so we can both be happy and play)

"okay, if you insist"

"yayyy, okie, nuw stay hewe. I needa get u stuff" (yay, okay, now stay here. I need to get you stuff)

"be safe!!!" you shout out as they rush off to the kitchen.

You wait in bed thinking over what your little tot could be doing. You listen carefully to make sure there are no concerning noises and while there are a couple thunks they're all followed by a quick "I okey" (I'm okay). You start to feel more guilty about leaving your little alone especially when they're this small and running around the house to do whatever they want. You think about how you're last little would have come back crying about how you didn't follow them even though they told you not to.

As your fears start to creep, thinking of your little muffin coming back upset or hurt they appear in the doorway happy as ever

" 'ook wa I made fur u" (look what I made for you?)

They present you with their favourite plate with a messy peanut butter and jelly sandwich in one section, chips in another and a mix of blueberries and raspberries in the last.

"I didznt cut da sammich cause i knuw u dun wanme usin sharp stuff. Annnn! N i added fwuits cause you awways say dere 'mpowtant" "I didn't cut up the sandwich because I know you don't want me using sharp objects. And! I added fruits because you always say they are important)

"aww, you're such a good kid" you say was you rub their hair.

"canz I cuddle wid u?" (can I cuddle with you?)

"of course!"

You lay there, hugging them and snacking on the food they made for you for a while.

"Hey button, I'm really sorry I couldn't be that good of a caregiver today"

"wha??? you were da best today!" (What? You were the best today) they cuddle into your arm, "I don eed you tu awways be stwong for me. ur da best cause I wuv u not cause of da stuff u do" (I don't need you to always be strong for me. You're the best because I love you, not because of the stuff you do for me)

Fun fact! There's this thing called misokinesia that's similar to misophonia but is triggered by other people's movements, often repetitive movements like fidgeting or stimming.

I had this as a kid really bad, I was always having meltdowns cause no one would understand just how distressing it was for me so it's really nice to find out that it's an actual thing :3

Wishing that everyone who deals with misokinesia isn't forced to stay in a space with triggering movements 🥰🥰🥰

I sick today :((((. I wanna go home and hug my mama and eat appy sauce and be in bed but I has a test I needa do and also tmrw and also tomorroworrow and I really wanna sleep but I needa be strong and I can be strong and I'm gonna be able to power through this and do what I need to do

the phrase "good art should comfort the disturbed and disturb the comforted" if often used when talking about gory art but I think it can also be applied to how some ppl are disturbed by soft and childish agere art when all it's meant to do is comfort those that need it and I think that's beautiful.

🥳🥳🥳HAPPY BIRTHDAY 🥳🥳🥳

MY BIRTHDAY TOMORROW GUYS IM GOING TO BE A BIG GIRL

'm bout to get bloodwork done and I know it's gonna be scary but sometimes they give me a juice box after so 'm gonna try to be brave and hopefully I get a juice box

tips for getting out of little space when you need to. (this is what I've found works for me, something different might work better for you)

Make sure you have ways to regulate your emotions when big so you don't slip back into little space when you first get stressed again

Try to ground yourself in your body, it'll remind you of your big age

And make sure you're happy with your body so it's easier to ground yourself. For me this means putting on gender affirming gear and a really dope outfit

Put on some less child friendly music you like

Try to change your surrounding and having some spaces where you regress and others where you don't

Make sure all your toys and other agere stuff is put away and preferably out of sight

If you feel comfortable put yourself in a situation where you can't regress (eg around ppl who don't know you regress)

Try doing things that make you feel like an adult, for me this is my sport (Kendo) and writing analyses of shows I like

don't try to act older than your big age, it might just make you feel like you're 'playing' adult and make you feel more little

And remember to not force yourself de-regress unnecessarily, it's your mind's way of healing and if you can try to work on stuff you need to do while regressed.

Does anyone else view their regression/dreaming as more of an autistic trait than anything else?

I don't even know if I should be saying it's a trait?

For me it feels like I'm unmasking and even when I'm not regressed I still do/enjoy childlike things.

I wouldn't say I have trauma nor that my regression stems from trauma. My regression just feels like a vulnerable, soft headspace where I can just unwind and unmask. I honestly just didn't grow out of things -like toys and playing- and started masking (I especially noticed it when I was 10) to fit in with my peers who were growing out of things. I didn't want to be left behind and friendless.

is there a term in there agere community for like a crush but you want them to be your caregiver, not your partner???

This probably isn't a new thought but regressor!Doofenschmirtz and caregiver!perry the platypus!!!