You Know This Was Supposed To Just Be A Silly Fun AU

Do you think Dazai's ever run into Chuuya at the cemetery

Or even just like, Dazai noticed him from far away and went out of his way to avoid Chuuya to go pay respects to Oda because it's probably the most awkward and uncomfortable time they could be running into one another.

Chuuya doesn't notice because his back's turned and he's down on one knee with a bouquet of flowers in an iron grip, clearly occupied and even while Dazai reaches his destination, his attention keeps drifting to Chuuya up on the hill, silently praying for Chuuya to not turn around and see him.

But then they do run into each other because they take the same way out of the cemetery and they just exchange knowing glances. Like, of course Dazai knows what Chuuya's doing there, and vice versa.

The air is heavy and neither look any more at peace after paying respects, but that familiarity that neither are immune to processing grief years later brings a semblance of comfort.

makin a poll because I'm curious!

TIME FOR START AGAIN

Edit: hold the fuck up I'm missing something aren't I

MERRY BELATED CHRISTMAS YALLL

I was able to participate in the @isat-secretsanta-2024 and my secret Santa was @kimdokjafan :D

I had a lot of fun with your request, it was super cool to explore Loops feelings!

I hope you like it!!

My friend said he looks like Kokichi Ouma..... help??

Btw.... This work has a catsif version. If you're interested.

Nothing beats the feeling when you start getting comments on every fic in a fandom or ship from one person, and it’s clear that they’re going on a fic-binge. 

guys guys this might sound crazy but maybe we don't name our Chuuya Nakahara lovechild ocs after the real life Chuuya Nakahara's son who died of tuberculosis at 20 months old. maybe we consider being respectful to a man who never fully recovered from his son's death and had a nervous breakdown because of it. I know the whole point of BSD is mixing real life authors and stories into an anime but i don't want to see the name of a dead toddler reused for your Soukoku lovechild OCS on my feed, or anywhere at all. that's extremely disrespectful and just plain insensitive in my opinion. the sufferings of someone who actually lived in real life did not happen in any way for you to used to make your OCS quirky or more connected to Chuuya Nakahara. <3

AHSIDOSUGA I GOT MY WIG FOR MY DAZAI COSPLAY BUT I FORGOT I HAVE LITTERALLY NOTHING TO STYLE IT WITH YALL IM DYING RN

Forced to learn how tumblr works because quotev has officially killed itself ☹️ (please tell me terms and stuff i should know) (and explain it like youre talking to your mom about your favorite media)

My in real time thoughts on ACT 5 to the end! Obviously, spoilers ahead

What the fuck what the fuck what the fuck what the fuck what the fuck what the fuck what the fuck what the fuck what the fuck what the fuck what th

OH MY GOD NO SIFFRIN STOP IT STOP STOP STOP STOP ITTTT STOP PLEASE STOP SIFFRIN

NO NO NO NO NO THEY FUCKING LEFT ALREADY DIDNT THEY THEYRE GONE THEY LEFT OH MY GOD THEY HATE US NOW WAIT THEY FIDNT LEAVE OH MY GOD THATS SO MUCH FUCKING WORSE OH MY GOD IT IS SO MUCH WORSE

OH MY GOD WE LEFT ON OUR OWN SIFFRIN NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO SIFFRIN OH MY GOD

WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH THE ROOMS OH MY GOD WHAT DO YOU MEAN MEMORY OF EMPTINESS OH MY GOD NO ATTACK COOL DOWN THIS IS THE ONLY TIME IVE BEEN UPSET AT THAT

I DONT LIKE THE MUSIC ITS ALL DISTORTED AND TRAGIC AND OMMINOUS

OH MY GOD THE GHOST IS BACK AND ITS REVERSED OH MY GOD WE JUST FUCKING BROKE THE COUNTER OH MY GOD SIFFRINS SPRITE MF THE GHOST AGAIN

THE MUSIC KEEPS SWITCHING FROM DISTORTED AND TERRIFYING TO SO SAD AND TRAGIC LIKE ITS MARKING THE END

OH GOD ITS LIKE ITS MARKING THE END

WHY ARE THE HALLS SO WEIRD

OH MY GOD SIFFRINS JUST STRAIGHT SLICING THROUGH IT THEN MOVING ON

OH MY GOD NOT THE HALLUCINATION OF THE OTHERS WHAT THE FUCK TAT

BRO WOULD THE CHANGE GOD EVEN GIVE ME THE KEYKNIFE ATP WTF OR IS SIFFRIN JUST FUCKING STRONG ENOUGH TO NOT GIVE A SHIT

WHYS THE HALLWAY LOOPING WHATS WRONG WITH THESE ROOMS

MF YOU AGAIN

OH MY GOD THE ROOMS WHAT THE FUCK

WHATS THE DEAL WITH FRUITS AM I BEING STUPID OR AM I SUPPOSED TO NOT GET IT WHY- OH SHIT IS IT BECAUSE BONNIE WOULD BE EATING AN APPLE IN HERE OR AM I STILL CRAZY

WHY ARE THERE MORE TEARS

WHY IS THE ROOM MIXING TAKING ME STRAIGHT TO EVERY ROOM I NEED

IK I SAID I DIDNT LIKE THE MUSIC BUT CAN I HAVE IT BACK NOW

THAT WAS SO CRUELLLLL YOU GAVE ME FAMILY JUST TO RIP FAMILY AWAY

AND I SAW RED AGAIN IS SOMETHING BREAKING IS IT OUR MIND I THINK ITS OUR MIND

HEY STOP LOOPING LET ME CONTINUE

OH COME LET ME ONE HIT THE GIANT HANDS FFS

WHY DO I KEEP GETTING THE LOOPING CUE AS THE SCREEN GLITCHES OUT IM NOT LOOPING

CAN THE GLORIFIED BOMB LEAVE ME ALONE OMG

AY STOP IT LET ME CONTINUE

STOP ITTTTTTTT

NO SIFFRIN WE NEED TO SLEEP AGAIN LET ME LOOP BACK SO WE CAN FIX IT PLEASE

WDYM THEYRE REFLECTED IN IT

AND WDYM ACTORS SIFFRIN NO

PLEASE STOP MAKING ME RE-LIVE THIS IT HURTS OMG

WHY IS THE ORIGINAL PICTURE THERE

WHY WAS THAT THE EXACT SAME AS WHEN WE FIRST GOT THERE

THE GHOST IS BACK CAN I FUCKING TALK TO THE GHOST IT KNOWS MORE THAN I FUCKING DO IF IT POPS UP EVERYWHERE

Huh I can escape fights I didn't know that or wait that might just be an act 5 thing

WHAT THE FUCK MIRABELLE

LET ME LEAVE MIRABELLES ROOM STOP MAKING ME THINK ABOUT IT

OH MY GOD POOR SIFFRIN

AY LET ME CALL LOOP

OH MY GOD SIFFRINNNNN MY BABY

STOPPPPPPPPPP

NOW I FEEL BAD WANTING TO LOOP BACK WTF

FINE FULLY ADOPTING SIFFRIN PHILOSOPHY JUST KEEP MOVING FORWARD AND ITLL ALL BE OVER EVENTUALLY

CHANGE GOD IF YOURE WATCHING ME DONT YOU FUCKING SAY SHIT ALRIGHT IMMA GET THE KEYKNIFE AND CONTINUE ON MY WAY

OH MY GOD WHY ARE THE KINGS THINGYS OR WAIT THATS HAIR ISNT IT WHY IS THE KINGS HAIR COVERING THE WALLS NOW AND WHY ARE KEY SPOTS BLOCKED BY LIKE 3 ROWS OF TEARS TF

ODILE WHAT

PLEASE SIFFRIN I JUST WANT YOU TO CHILL AND BREATH FOR A SEC

WHY WAS THERE AN ARMY OF INVERTED GHOST MES

OH THANK YOU I WAS ABOUT TO BE SO PISSED IF YOU TRIED KEEPING IT AWAY FROM ME

YOU KNOW ATP YOU GO FOR IT SIFFRIN IM TIRED OF THESE THINGS

SHIT DID THEY ACTUALLY GO AHEAD HOW ARE THEY AHEAD THEY CANF ACTUALLY BE AHEAD RIGHT

CAN I HAVE THE MUSIC BACK

JUST FIGHT ME ASS WIPE

OH MY GOD THIS IS GONNA TAKE FOREVER AT THIS RATE

OH SCISSORS DOES SAME DMG FOR ALL FINE THEM IMMA SPAM SCISSORS

BRO SIFFRINS FACE BARELY CHANGES WHEN LOW HO NOW

OH MY GOD SIFFRIN THAT FUCKING HURT

YOU KNOW WHAT AT LEAST BEATING YOUR ASS IS A GOOD WAY TO VENT MY ANGER DAMNIT

OH GOD IT WENT RED FROM THE KING YELLING

WHAT

OH GOD ITS CAUSE IM FIGHTIBG KN MY OWN

OH GOD SIFFRIN QAIT WAIT WAIT WAIT

DID

WHAT

WHERE AM I

DUDE WHAT THE FUCK

ITS THE GHOST

WHY ARE WEVFIGGHTING

WHATD

AH

MAL DU PAYS WHAT

HOKDD TRANSLATION BEFORE CONTINUING

OH GOD IM SHAKING

HUH HOMESICKNESS?

IS THAT ACTUALLY WHAT IT MEANS OR IS GOOGLE TRANSLATE FUCKING WITH MD

WDYM IMMUNE

I HIT ROCK YOU LOOK LIKE ME SO YOU SHOULDVE BEEN WEAK RIGHT

WHAT

BRO AT LEASY SAY SOMETHING

MX. MAL DU PAYS SAY SOMETHING PLEASE

DONT LEAVE MR TO JUST ATTACK

STOP STARING AND SAY SOMETHING

what....

What..

Bonnie...

Bonnie please...

NO STOP IT NOW

NOT ODILE

oh god...

Oh...

Oh shit...

Ohhhhhhh...

Oh god

Oh god not even human anymore

Oh my god

Oh please let it be fake

Please please

Let it be fake

Let Mal Du Pays stop talking

WHY ARE YOU CRYING

WHY THE FUCK ARE YOU CRYING

YOU THROQ THAT SHIT AT ME AND YOU CRY

NO NOT ISABEAU

NOT HIM

Oh...

Oh god...

Oh no no no no

No no no no no no no no no

Please stop

Oh hod stop stop stop stop don't do this to Mr no no no

Oh shit shit no isabeau no no no no no stop stop stop

Why are you yelling

Why throw all that at me and start yelling like you're in pain

I'm want our of this so bad holy shit let me out dude

NO STOP OPENING YOUR MOUTH STOP UT

NOT MIRA

Oh

Oh

Oh god

Mira

No

Mirabelle

OH GOD ITS ALL RED

This scene is hopeful but idk why but I don't feel very hopeful at all...

Huh

HUH

HOW IS THE KING BEING FROZEN

He remembers now

I'm glad at least someone does

He gets to be frozen remembering home

Ok this is making me feel a bit better

NEVERMIND NOT HOPEFUL

IS THAT OUR FAULT

STOP

MAL DU PAYS

ITS STILL BEHIND US

WHY IS IT FOLLOWING

LEAVE ME ALONE

HUH

OH GOD WHAT DO I PRESS

DINE YES

IM SCARED HELP ME

I feel like a feeble old woman this is disgusting

They don't wanna hear the sorry

That's fair

STOP STOP STOP NOT AGAIN PLEASE NOT AGAINNO NO NO NON OXNO WAIT STOP

NO NO NO NO

SIFFRIN

OH GOD THEYRE BIG LIKE THE KING WAX

DINT MAKE ME FIGHT THEM

DONT MAKE ME FIGHT THEM

PLEASE

NO I WONT ATTACK

I REFUSE

MIRABELLE DONT HEAL ME PLEASE

LET ME DO IT MYSELF

NO I DONT WANT TO HURT THEM

WHAT DID LOOP TELL YOU

STOP

IM NOT HURTING YOU SO STOP PLEASE MIRA

Oh

They know

No I don't want the to know

I loope

DONT STOP ME PLEAS

ODILE LET ME GO BACK

I WONT ATTACK THEM

I DONT CARE IF ODILE IS STOPPING ME FROM LOOPING BACK WHEN THATS ALL I WANT TO DO

I WONT ATTACK THEM

SGOP HEALING ME

STOP HEALING ME SO I CAN DIE AND LOOP BACK OH MY GOD

OH MY GOD THAT

IM GONNA CRY

PLEASE LET IT BE THE END

I THINK THERES ANOTHER ACT OR SOMETHING STILL BUT LET IT BE THE END

Hey my hat

My hat

Where hat

Oh don't make me fucking talk to you after them

I'm getting flashbacks lady oh my god

Also I want my hat back

I GOT HEADPATS FROM ODILE

THIS IS THE BEST DAY OF MY LIFE

BONBON HUGGIESSSSSSSS

LH THANK FUCK

THAT WAS SO CUTE

MY HEART IS FULL

God I love this game

Hi so in stars and time is effectively altering my brain chemistry and like, entire life.

Here I thought this was gonna just be a chill time of me discovering a new game I'd enjoy