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oh boy i love me some delusional larpers

To every swiftie who read this : Please reblog and let @taylorswift @taylornation notice us that we are not part of the Manipulative Club. I stan @taylorswift with all my heart and I strongly believe that whatever she does has a purpose, a reason and Truth. I would never Manipulate a post after it reaches the privilege of 'Taylorliked' hastag.

Do you all agree that Swifties in Tumblr have the privilege to get noticed by @taylorswift more often than Swifties in Twitter, Instagram ? Not to sound partial but it's the reality that Tumblr swifties get notified the most.

But here's a thing, i wanna ask you all. Is editing a post after receiving appreciation is right?

It's disgusting to know this. Editing a post and making it seem like Taylor liked it ? What kind of activity is this ?! Isn't similar to what Kim Kard***ian did to Taylor ? Cutting out the Truth, Editing the written words , Manipulating the Post - all these comes under Forgery.

To the one who edited it : Initially the post was about something else. And it got the privilege of 'Taylorliked' hastag. The post served the purpose. Then why do you even alter it ???

First of all, why do you say that @taylorswift isn't using her platform for blm ? Do you even realize that what she does is more than what you could do ?

Secondly, are you even a Swiftie if you are Manipulating your words ? You must have known how cruel it is to manipulate things, if you would have known the KimKanye incident. Do you understand the pain @taylorswift went through because of that. Now don't say it's not going to bother anyone just by editing out the post. Be it for any reason, altering the post after you received the purpose is simply wrong. Now for everyone who see the post , it would look like ' Taylor liked this post ' . Let's assume, Taylor herself looks at the post and comes to know that she liked it.. wouldn't that be a horrible trust-breaking thing ?!

Because of one or two people doing this manipulation, every swiftie will have to answer and be responsible for the mistake. So who are in Trouble? Not only the one who edited it, but also everyone who liked and reblogged the post. Now, I come to quote the point that 'You not only broke Taylor's trust but also Every Swiftie who reblogged the Post' .

If you wanna spread the message, start a new post about it and ask @taylorswift to notice it. Do it from the scratch like how you do for any post. Manipulating the old post wouldn't serve the purpose. Instead it brings complications.

Do you understand how much @taylorswift adores Swifties. So Don't you think Taylor will not know about this incident. Taylor @taylorswift and Her team @taylornation are into Swifties and they always look for our opinions, choices. Wouldn't they notice this Manipulative post ? Who in the world, a big celebrity with huge net worth invites their fans for secret sessions at their homes and plays music before the album gets released? I mean, who in this whole big world, handpicks fans, bakes cookies, plays music, dances with them, shares their expensive pets, poses pictures with hugs and kisses ? Who would do that for Fans? She trusts us more than anything and takes the risk to play music for us even before it comes out. But what we do for her in return? Editing the liked posts and spoiling the spirit of Fandom ?!?!?!

My only obligation to the person who edited that post is ' Please edit back the post to it's original words and don't repeat anything like this that would spoil the positivity of this amazing lovely Fandom'

To every swiftie who read this : Please reblog and let @taylorswift @taylornation notice us that we are not part of the Manipulative Club. I stan @taylorswift with all my heart and I strongly believe that whatever she does has a purpose, a reason and Truth. I would never Manipulate a post after it reaches the privilege of 'Taylorliked' hastag.

I love you @taylorswift ❤️ @taylornation Please don't loose your trust on Swifties like us 🥺❤️

@taylorswift @taylornation

Note : Unfollow me if you don't agree with my point that Manipulating a post is wrong. I would be happier if I lose contact with people like that.

There's just so much existential horror and misery trapped within the comedy of Saiki K and tbh that's why I love it lmao.

Xxx

Forcing your entire family to lift their roots and put them down elsewhere. Being intelligent enough to see and understand the burden and strain this places on the people around you. Knowing they do it because your parents love you, they don't want to leave you. The sacrifices they've made just for you.

Your mom is afraid to make friends because what if she says too much?

Your father is constantly going from job to job, something which looks terrible on a resume, forcing him to take worse and worse work just so he can support your family. He blames you. You kinda blame you too so you don't protest it. It's not like he can hurt you anyway if he takes it out on you. He does. He doesn't hide it. Why would he? It's normal.

You've been fighting one thing or the other ever since you can remember.

It's natural for your older brother to be jealous of you - your very presence has split his parents' attentions but more now he has to learn from a young age first hand that there's always someone better than you. Your life is constantly displaced for reasons that are purely attributed to you, but you can't make those reasons go away.

You can't connect with anyone either. You're terrified that if you do, something will happen that'll trigger your family to move, again, uproot everything they've tried so hard to establish. Or, worse, you'll hurt someone. Many someones. Break the world. You've almost done it. Your morals weren't fully developed then. The guilt you carry isolates you further.

The people you love most are constantly on the run. From you.

You're aware of your capacity. Of your ability. It's frightening to the point of grey, numb, exhaustion.

You want to run from you too.

Xxx

Your little brother was the worst and best thing that ever happened to you. You hated him but he challenged you physically and creatively, drove you to work hard, inspired you constantly to do better, do bigger, because every failure was an opportunity to learn. But it got to be too much. You had to get away. He was everywhere. He was better than you. Stronger than you. Your nights become filled with nightmares once you learn he nearly killed four kids - and nobody is ever going to know he did it. Worse, nobody is ever going to care he did it. He can make it so. So you leave, go to be among people you think are like you....only they're not. Your life has been so insular from all the moving around that you never got to realize how even the brightest the world has to offer apparently don't hold a Candle to you. You become jaded. You become lazy. You become depressed. What's the point. Your life no longer has meaning.....until you realize that the meaning of your life was the very person you ran away from. The one who simultaneously terrified and inspired you, who pushed you to be the best. Your life was so much better then. You need to recapture that zeitgeist. You're terrified. You have so much love. Nobody makes you feel the way he does, nobody on this planet can compare-...but wait. That's your little brother. That's not quite right? Is it? You've never been in love. You've never connected to anyone else. Your scope of understanding on that point is narrow. You begin to misunderstand your own feelings based on the criteria you've been exposed to since goodness knows when.

Nobody else can ever understand.

Other people can never understand.

Nobody compares anyway.

They're ants compared to you, and compared to him?

Nothing at all.

Xxx

You thought you had it all - good looks, a good brain, athleticism. For a long time you were at the top of the hierarchy. You meet a beautiful girl. She loves you, you love her. The entire world is stretching in front of the two of you, mired in glorious green and hope. You want to give her a good life. And then you have children. The first one is intense and bright. He's able to comprehend so much it's scary but he's also still only a child. You can see it in how he acts, all that learning still to do, things not yet understood. You teach him. You're proud. But you're scared. His potential frightens you. But he's still your kid. And you're still his dad.

But then your second son happens. He's born with unnatural pink hair. In just days he's talking to you with his mind in full, perfect sentences. His hold on grammar is better than yours. His strength is keener than yours.

He has psychic powers.

But he's still your son. You're still his dad.

Only it doesn't feel that way at all. Your authority is in question constantly. You feel like you're looking at a grown man trapped within the unsettlingly coloured eyes of an infant. He's strange. He doesn't respect you. You lose grip. Your eldest, too, has taken note. He doesn't care about you much anymore, what you have to show and teach him. The both of you could be in this together but you're divided. And then you're moving, constantly. Your wife is all you have left in the world who cares about you. That hope you once held, the feeling of potential, it's gone. You've seen the universe. You looked into it. In return it looked into you.

It found you wanting.

Xxx

Your world used to be big. So big. So full.

Used to be.

You see your parents rarely but it's awkward and stressful when you do. Your friends? Left behind. You chose your family over them, it was the right thing to do. They don't reach out. You leave them to it.

In your home are three people. You love them with all your heart. They fulfill you endlessly. They're all good men. They love you in return.

But they hate each other.

You're an anchor tied between three directions. Pulled apart.

Then it's two.

It's easier. That makes you feel horrible.

Worse, you know eventually it'll only be one. Or maybe even none.

You're alone.

Where did you go?

Who are you anymore?

You know your husband and sons better than you know yourself.

Please don't let them ever leave you alone to those godforsaken four walls. Somehow they've become your whole world.

But then it's not. You haven't moved in a while. You've been able to make friends! Your youngest has too, thank god, the loneliness you're so afraid of is something you'd never want your littlest to experience.

But.

You open your mouth too big. Too wide. Too many times over. Your son has to swoop in and save you every time.

Loneliness was fine.

The guilt is so much worse.

the suspense till the chapter they meet is slowly destroying me x)

What the heck is wrong with tumblr swifties???? Like why would u unstan taylor cz of politics or because she's "quiet" about BLM?? Did u start to stan her because of her political views?? Probably not.

YOU DO NOT KNOW WHAT TAYLOR IS DOING PERSONALLY AT HOME WITHOUT TELLING EVERYBODY. MAYBE SHE NEEDS TIME TO THINK ABOUT ALL TH CHAOS AND ITS NOT LIKE SHE DID "NOTHING". Those swipe up links were very useful!! And just cz she said in Miss Americana that she wants to talk about politics DOES NOT mean that she will speak up on EVERY SINGLE POLITICAL MATTER!!!! She wanted to say that she should be able to express her views about politics without people being like "wHy iS sHe tAlkInG aBouT pOliTicS?!"

STOP ATTACKING HER FOR EVERYTHING!

The plan was to stay up late and finish work. Until I clarified with my friend that there's no presentation tmr.

All anxiousness and stress left my body.

discipline top apparently.

Thus, stayed up till 3am not getting any progress and just watched youtube videos.

THEN spent another 1 another trying to sleep cuz my brain needed the dopamine rush.

My friend better be correct..haha

5 years on tumblr, huh, insane to think about i. Time files fast when ur life is falling apart

When I first read this, it really hits me knowing I could've recovered faster mentally if I had reached out earlier. Don't drown yourself again in the sea of loneliness

(also cuz I've seen this post afew times this week so reposting it as a reminder)

i know it's hard. but i so firmly believe the strongest antidote to loneliness is reaching out first. and continuing to reach out. again and again and again. excise any scrap of shame you hold about being the person who texts first or pitches the plan or asks to get lunch. everyone is tired and busy and struggling. and afraid of feeling unwanted and unimportant. don't let the people you love feel that way. reach out first. don't be a ghost in your own life.

#real #sengen my lovelies #drst #I am back in this fandom yuppies #reading manga first tho #gotta catch up before s4p2 drops

yaayyyy season 4 😍

what do you mean I got mentally drained from one singular text conversation 😭😭😭

BRO IM NOT GONNA PROGRESS ;-;