I Wish I Was Truly Alone

I wish i was truly alone

Alone in a house

Alone in the woods

Alone in the world

So i wouldnt have to feel the pain of people

Hear the pain of people

Know the pain of people

I am scared

I am a coward

You are the best thing to have ever happened to me

And i do not want to lose you

I love you so solidly

So wholey

So maturely

So beyond my years

If i told you

All of this

Would you tell me too?

That you love me so truly?

So wholey?

So beyond your years?

Live your life, and ill live mine

But let me live my life with you

Beside yours

Id like to live

Teach me how to do that?

So that i dont do it wrong

I dont want to do it wrong

I am fragile

I am glass

Thin, brittle

But my love for you is strong

Like roman concrete

With it, i am stronger

As i weather through life

I heal

Like roman concrete

Though neve fully, never wholey

I dont mind

Because your love makes me strong

But i cannot be strong

Without you

If i told you that

Would you see me as simple?

As weak?

As codependent?

Is this parasitical?

Am i bad for you?

Do i bite?

Through my creation, have i poluted?

The water, the air?

With my volcanic ash?

Have i hurt?

Can you breath?

Do i bite?

Have i bitten?

Im scared

I am weak

I feel alone

Solitary

Singular

But with you,

You help

You do not complete me

That is not your job

To complete me

But you

You do so much more

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My cat: comes, sits in front of my knee, and yells at me.

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1 year ago

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