Main pairing: Will Graham × female reader
Summary: Will plans to escape federal custody to gather evidence to prove his innocence but he needs help, more importantly he needs you. So much so, that you don't get to decide if you want to come with him or not.
Warnings: Smut, 18+, mentions of murder, psychiatric facilities and breaking law.
Writer's note: Just a little dark fluff cause I had to write something on Will Graham!
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The intimacy knowing his mind provided, even a year in his bed couldn't. You do regret not being able to smell him though; the glass between you both hindering the magnificence of his husk, woody smell. He hates it, staying within a place where every day someone's trying to get into his head. And so do you. No matter what they say, you believe Will couldn't have possibly killed them. And it isn't blind belief in him but rather the confidence in your convictions to know his mind.
He doesn't ask it out loud, but his eyes beg you to not judge him- not for the things he says he didn't do. And maybe he knows you believe him to some extents because you're the only psychiatrist he asked for and talks to. You've visited Hannibal too. While you respect the man for his intellect, he has a peculiar aura about him. His charm, insight, love for refined taste in lifestyle and literature- his perfection. It strikes you as odd. You don't believe every accusation Will tossed at the doctor but you do believe it has some truth to it- some story.
It's cold and gloomy to walk in these halls. But you can't really complain, after all it is a psychiatric facility. Your heart beats loud at the prospect of seeing him again.
It was a shock sure- when you recieved word from Dr Chilton that Will Graham requested you to be his psychiatrist and if you're being honest, then probably more shocking than Will getting convicted. Afterall, it's been two years since you last saw Graham. The sessions have been interesting although.
He's already staring at you while you climb down the stairs. His intense stare makes your heart pump faster but you keep your face neutral.
"Hello, Will."
"Dr. L/N."
"How do you feel this morning?"
"Bitter. A little annoying too, possibly. Did you talk to Dr. Chilton about the concept of privacy?"
"He denied your claims.", then offering him a little smirk I mention, "Hoping that he'd stop monitoring our conversations as a professional courtesy or even moral obligation is too much in his case. So, I believe he's still listening in."
Will chuckles and a familiar softness enters his gaze for a moment, reminding you of the times you used to live together.
"Of course, Doctor."
Before your blank mask cracks you push the conversation into safer territory.
"They told me you'd be taken into federal custody this coming Monday?"
"Yes, doc. They denied my plea for insanity."
You observe his face for any clues and you find something you wish you didn't. He can see the moment of clarity, the moment you realise why he's fine with the idea of going to prison for crimes he never claimed as his own despite the evidence against him and he smiles.
You have known for a while that he was leaning towards manipulation. Baiting fish with baits he had never revealed before, you knew for a while that his desperation for someone to believe him, combined with his resentment for the doctor was changing him. But you were sympathetic, you felt it in you that he didn't do it. But now, you're conflicted.
You can't stay quiet. But you have no evidence to support your claim either. Not like you'd give him up just like that. Somewhere within, you know you can't really help him, not with what he really needs the help. It's not his mind that's the issue, it never was. He always has been a man aware of every crook and cranny of his own mind. He was either being framed or he commited every crime in complete concious, but knowing Will like you did, you knew it was the former.
"Will. I would ask you to rethink over your subjective decisions once again."
"I take objectivity in consideration just as much as subjectivity while deciding, doctor. I'm okay with it. Atleast I won't be listened in on every damn second."
His tone is filled with conviction. You know you can't change his mind. Before you can say anything he slowly brings his fingers outside the bars, giving you time to decide if you want to move forward or not. You do. You cover the steps to the bars and reach with your own hand. Shudders go through your hand the moment they touch his.
"Why did you come, Y/N? We don't have any session anymore, doctor?"
"I-", looking at his face you know why you came, "I know you didn't do this. I wish I could help, but what I can give doesn't seem enough."
Shouts ring from the other end of the hallway, telling you to step back. Looking in his eyes, beautiful blue, you tell him one last thing.
"I know. And I understand."
You know he knows what you were talking about the moment his eyes show warmth and turn glassy.
They escort you out of the hall and you leave willingly, still reeling from the intensity of possibly your last encounter with the man you have loved for so long.
Spending the rest of the week with a restless energy because of knowledge you weren't supposed to have irks you. But you worry if he'll be okay? Or if he'll make matters worse if he failed?
Monday is filled with appointments and sessions for you, leaving you too busy to think of Will. The thought creeps out often from the back of your mind but you push it back nonetheless. He will be okay. It's his business anyway, who can say you had any idea of his potential escape anyway. You weren't his psychiatrist anymore, nor are you his lover. You don't need to worry.
Deciding to spend your lunch hours at home, looking over your garden- you drive home. It's quiet here, like usual. Your fingers tremble from time to time when you think of Will, hoping to whatever god that listens that he is atleast alive and okay.
Walking in through your door, you drop you keys on the counter top, taking off your heels. So lost in your thoughts that you miss his smell as he creeps behind you. Freezing when you hear a gun being cocked, you turn around slowly.
"Will."
If it's a plea or relief, you can't tell yourself.
"Well atleast you escaped successfully. What ar-"
"Why didn't you tell anyone?"
"Who'd have believed me?", you scoff to sound believable.
"Jack would've.", his eyes stare you down as if commanding you to tell him the truth. He knows it but he wants to hear you say it. You can see it in his lost eyes.
"I know you're not a killer. I knew escaping was your only option.", looking at his disappointed eyes you can't help but whisper the remaining truth, "And I still care about you, Will."
"Baby-", his eyes water at your admission. The hidden pain all bubbling up to surface. And your heart aches seeing his beautiful face contorted in such a painful expression.
You push his gun aside and bring your hands on his head to bring it to yours. Taking his hand, you both sit on your couch and you tuck his head in your chest as he sobs quietly for all he's gone through the past months.
Minutes later, he's kissing you with a mix of desire and desperation and you comply fervently. Kissing and tasting him like this feels so intimate yet familiar at once, like old times but much more intensified because of the renewed passion and intellectual intimacy. Your conversations with Will these past months have brought you closer to him in a way you never were with him when you two actually dated.
Tugging his hair, you moan into his mouth as he rakes his hand firmly through your hair, down to your breasts. Pressing them firmly but torturously slow he moves you into his lap. Grinding into his lap, you throw your head back as he sucks your chest through your blouse. His pants grow hotter and his grip on your hips tighter as you keep grinding down his covered length faster.
A shrill ring cuts through the lusty fog you both are lost into. You realise it's your phone. Sighing as you peel yourself from his lap while he stares at you with barely controlled desire, you retreat to your discarded handbag.
Taking out your phone, you look at him in panic.
"It's Jack. They know you've escaped. Go! Leave, Will-"
"You don't really believe I just came to ask you a question, do you?"
Realising what he's implying you stare at him in shock.
"Will, No. I can't come. Yo-"
"It isn't a choice, baby.", he slowly picks up his gun as he stands up to walk to me, "I need help and you are the only one who's willing to believe. And after what just happened, there's not just only one reason to bring you with me anymore. You're coming with me."
You sigh in defeat when you see how serious he is. It might take a long while to change his mind. But it seems he knows you'd fight back because next you know he's knocking you on the back of your skull and everything turns black.
"One of the profound anxieties I have is that because I only have one life, I am temporally and geographically limited. I can’t live in Brighton and in Barcelona and in Brussels at the same time. I strain against my finitude and wish I could be everywhere.
Reading calms this restlessness and allows me to transcend my limits. This is why I’ve always loved novels with a sense of place. I feel that I know what it is like to grow up in Orhan Pamuk’s Istanbul, hang out in Donna Tartt’s Las Vegas, make a life in Tom Franklin’s Mississippi. When I wrote Berlin, I really wanted to give my readers that travelling experience: to place them in the city so that they would know the food, colours and smells, the strange and wonderfully disorienting social fabric of the place."
-Bea Setton; Author of"Berlin"
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We all say be brave, be proud, be assertive. But we have to understand too that merely words don't heal wounds. Those who have suffered because of this world's unacceptable discrimination can't simply stand up unless you give a hand and your call to be brave is not a helping hand. Please understand that you telling them something they already know but are unable to do makes them more embarrassed of their own trauma. They assume their struggles make them weak and thus don't talk about it to people. But we need to encourage them to believe they are strong. They don't have to be anything, they already are so much and after what misery they survived they deserve to feel victimized, sad, betrayed and hurt. It's only natural.
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Okay, but really, watching moon knight has been the best part of my week this month. Two consciousness- so different to each other but of course one of them is an alter so the thing most important to him is protecting the host.
When Marc said that he owed his servitude to khonshu because that moon god saved their lives- he clearly implied that he was ready to protect Steven from the weight of what he can't bear. He will kill, he will have blood on his hands, he will hurt but in the end he will always end up protecting others he loves.
The thing is that Steven isn't wrong to not trust Marc because he clearly thinks Marc's volatile, meanwhile Marc has no other option but to kill to protect Layla and Steven both. Not just that, he's delivering justice of some sorts, but doesn't mean he likes the idea too much himself. I mean the way he hesitated before admitting that the price for being saved was his servitude and then got violently defensive when Steven told him everything he touches, he ruins. Clearly the way khonshu and he talked it indicates Marc was the one experiencing slow dying when khonshu found them, so baby boy has trauma of God knows what level.
This show has just given me way too many theories!!!
May study challenge Day 2
So, today right after work I came back to my GitHub. I figured out how to pull/push repo on Mac. But most of my time was consumed by the attempt of changing the indicated programming language of the project. For example, my basically R script was detected by GitHub as JavaScript because one of the libraries I use is written in js.
I got to know that in one week I will be present my interactive maps at a department meeting!
Also, in three weeks we will have a hackathon in our company. And... in the application form I chose to program in Python. Despite that R is my main tool so far, I've learnt some algorithms exactly in Python. Though never used it in practice. It seems like I am gaining a growing mindset.
Also, today my colleague has forwarded my cv to his past company.
Finally, a bit of a nighttime was dedicated to German.
I'm myopic. So I need my glasses everytime I want to experience how a person with normal eyesight sees things. So, the situation is that to experience equality in terms of sight or vision, I NEED my glasses. It's not an advantage, it's a necessity. But to my father, it doesn't seem that way. He thinks I just need to wear glasses when I'm studying. To him, it looks like a tool to help me do something better rather than something that I need to do things normally all the the time.
I think people with any disability are misunderstood the same way and it's a shameful understanding society keeps about their issues. If only these nuances are understood more precisely, maybe we wouldn't question laws made for people with disabilities, so that they can experience equal participation and rights like any normal citizen, and maybe this world would be a slightly better place.