Blow And Hello Kitty Are My Only Sources Of Happiness These Days

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I want to be totally dominated and controlled but still loved and cared for so gently and patiently. I desire to be someone’s entire world. I want to shut up when I’m told then be rewarded and praised for my good behavior. I want to be manhandled then cuddled up. Will this love ever find me sigh

I’m so gay too like where are the horny sexy femmes??

I know there’s more to life than all these wasted days

I’m beautiful but I’m broken.

I want to runaway with somebody.

I feel everything so incredibly intensely. Like a gift I haven’t learned how to use yet. I know my emotions are a blessing, I know, but why doesn’t it feel that way? Have I not met the right people? Am I not healed enough to maintain relationships with others? I wish I just knew all the answers. I guess I don’t have to have everything figured out right now. All I know is I don’t need to be cured or fixed or saved, just loved. If for once in my life I could just have that genuine love and patience - I know it would help me. I know it would heal the broken pieces of me that I cannot heal alone. I’m not giving up hope yet, I won’t. Love is out there waiting for me and I’m getting ready. I am ready. But until I find it I’ll give myself all that love I desire until I’ve loved me enough to feel safe enough to allow someone else to love me as well.

Diet Coke 😋